Home Health & Wellbeing

TW: Self harm and recovery

Mel_Mel_ Posts: 203 Trailblazer
I guess I've realised I've not been 'trying' hard enough to recover and not really following my therapist and what she recommends I do...and often I agree and don't actually do it, I'm ready to finally start trying anymore but I'm finding it so difficult as mental health has always been part of me, I've always struggled with it and its almost hard to 'let go' of everything that's part of me and try to get better.

For example, my therapist set me two tasks this weekend...one to delete TikTok which I managed, although I'm finding it hard to not redownload..another to get rid of my self-harm items...and I actually managed to that today and have been 4 days clean...however the withdrawals I guess you can call them and the urges are so bad I'm struggling really badly not to find something else and realising how hard...and how not easy recovery actually is...

I don't really know the purpose of this post but I just need to write it and let it out, I'm trying to not to fall back into old habits but it's hard, as my trauma comes up a lot lately and honestly the memories/flashbacks of them are the worst thing to try and get through alongside everything else I'm dealing with.
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  • Past UserPast User Posts: 0 The Mix Convert
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    Mel_
  • independent_independent_ Resident Coffee Addict ScotlandPosts: 5,358 Part of The Furniture
    Hey Mel, sending massive virtual hugs <3 

    Recovery is always going to be really tough, but any step no matter how small you should be really really proud of. You managed both of your tasks this week and that's great, it's amazing! 

    Have you got anything else at all that helps you to cope with how you're feeling that isnt self harm?
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
    Mel_
  • Anch0r33Anch0r33 Crazy Rat Lady 🐀 Posts: 566 Incredible Poster
    Hey Mel, I'm so proud of you for opening up. I know how hard you've been trying recently and it sounds like you really want to feel better and you've realised you're not doing what you need to do to get better. That's a major achievement, you should be proud of yourself <3
    👁️👄👁️
    Mel_
  • JordanJordan Posts: 255 Super Moderator
    Congradulations on managing both of your tasks this week, I'm sure everyone here is incredibly proud of you!

    I agree with @independent_ when they say that recovery is a tough and that you should be proud of any positive step you take. It's a journey where some days will be harder than others, but I believe in you!
    Mel_
  • coc0maccoc0mac Posts: 643 Incredible Poster
    Hi Mel, 

    Congratulations for managing to complete both tasks! That's a wonderful achievement, we are all so proud of you :heart: Recovery really is a journey, but you have shown so much strength in this post alone - so I really do believe in you! Take good care :heart:
    Mel_
  • Emoji246Emoji246 Posts: 457 Listening Ear
      Hey @Mel_
    im so proud of you for trying 💕
    Mel_
  • Mel_Mel_ Posts: 203 Trailblazer
    Thank you everyone wouldn't of even made it this far without the mix tbh & everyone in it
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