Feeling so Low

Millie2787

I Always feel bad writing post like these because just as things start to go right for me and I feel like I’m making progress, something happens that just sends me back to feeling so terrible.

I just don’t know what to do I just feel so down and my mind feels like I’m in one big back hole . My anxiety just gets worse and my Anxiety Medication just does nothing for it but every-time I speak to the GP about it they just say there is nothing else they can offer , I’m also on the max does of fluoxetine there willing to go and sertraline just made other issues worse.

I feel like I’m just hitting my head against a brick wall , no mental health service will have me - Enhanced Primary mental health care told my GP I’m now to complex for them to deal with but CMHT just keep rejecting my referral  saying I don’t need there help .

As for my eating disorder assessment I’ve still heard nothing on the outcome of that and she said they would ring me the week after the assessment and it’s  nearly Been a month now. 

i just want people to believe how much I’m struggling and that I’m not okay but no one seems to want to believe me  

Former Member

Hey @Millie2787 there's no need to feel bad about wrting posts like these, the boards are a safe space for anyone to talk about what's bothering them after all. It definitely sounds like you're having to deal with a lot of stressful situations at the moment and it's understandable that you're struggling a lot at the moment.

I know you mentioned that your GP said they can't offer any other medication, have you asked if it's possible for you to see a medication specialist? When I was struggling to find a medication that worked for me I got scheduled to see a specialist and they really helped me figure out what tablets would work best for me. Something to ask about if you want anyway.

As for your eating disorder assessment is there anyone you can contact to see what's going on? Things are probably a bit mixed up at the moment what with the Corona situation still happening but it never hurts to check on things especially if it's causing you more stress. Be sure to keep us updated and let us know if you hear anything about it in the future!

independent_

Hey Aimee, 

I hear you, I really do - it's really horrible when you feel like no one's listening and no one's really understanding how you're feeling. I've been there myself and it's really shit when no one seems to get it and no support services will take you on.

Never feel bad for writing on here it's a safe space and we're all here to listen to you. Sometimes just writing it down somewhere can feel like a kind of relief. 

Do you have anything you enjoy doing, distractions of sorts?

Sending big hugs, take care and keep talking about it  

Millie2787

Hi @Riley

The only way I would be able to see a “medication specialist “ for mental health I’m guessing would be a psychiatrist and I can’t see one of those without being referred into the service that won’t take me  

@independent_ Im just tired of being fobbed off all the time , I just want help , I’m desperate to be helped but no one will help me . I’m just tired it’s the same thing day in day out .

ive been starting cross stitch but I just get so frustrated at it I can’t concentrate enough.

independent_

I really know how you feel @Millie2787, the CMHT have done the same to me and it's only the other day that I've been offered counselling through someone at my GP surgery. It's exhausting having to fight to get the support you need and it shouldn't have to be. You deserve to be helped. 

Millie2787

I’m just stuck now @independent_ I’m not sick enough for CMHt but too complex for the service below them . It’s just not far I never get believed when I’m struggling it’s just always Ahh she’ll get over it she’ll be okay 

independent_

It's something I could rant about for hours @Millie2787, the services really let people down sometimes when they're needed the most. It's a really tough situation to be in. 

Are you still working at the moment?

Millie2787

I got signed off for 2 more weeks because of my ankle and I really don’t want to go back , being there makes me feel so anxious all the time and it’s not fair , they say work is good for me yet they won’t give me anything to help with my anxiety and I’m fed up @independent_

independent_

Do you find the fluoxetine helps with your anxiety at all? A lot of antidepressants are used for anxiety too and there are soooooo many out there if they won't give you other anxiety medications. 

Millie2787

Not anymore  

independent_

Aww no that's rubbish that it's stopped working for your anxiety. Does anything help you to relax in those really anxious moments?