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A pondering thought (Poem) (TRIG SH WARNING)

DistractionDistraction NoobScotlandPosts: 288 The Mix Regular
edited May 2020 in Creative

I have a pondering thought,

And it feeds off my heart.

 

It takes the guilt, the pain and hate,

To a very dark place.

 

It grows and it waits,

Until there's nothing left, but a hole in its place.

 

So it creates.


 TW: self-harm

Twisting my mind into taking a blade

Just so it can stay alive

Eating through the pain I make.


(I think this poem describes the circle of SH quite well and maybe even why it's so hard to brake and stay away from)


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  • DistractionDistraction Noob ScotlandPosts: 288 The Mix Regular

    I’m a little tired,

    A little sad,

    And a little disappointed,

     

    I don’t want to smile,

    I don’t want to frown,

     

    I don’t want to be alive, but I don’t want to die.

     

    I’m just a little tired,

    And I might not know why,

     

    But at least I try to understand

    That maybe one day,

    Life might shine.

     

    But just for now,

    Let me drown.

     

    Let me slip away.

     

    Let me be okay.


    LorryTruck
  • DistractionDistraction Noob ScotlandPosts: 288 The Mix Regular

    I’m not trying to be brave.

    And I’m not trying to pretend like everything is ok,

     

    But when I see your face,

    I hide it all away.

     

    I don’t let it show,

    And I keep it a hold.

     

    Because I find it hard

    To express how much it hurts inside.

     

    How much pain is lock away,

    Believe me I wish I could say.

     

    I wish I could tell you

    That I’m not ok

     

    But these crippling emotions,

    Cloud my brain,


    And not even a whisper will reach your way. 


    LorryTruck
  • DistractionDistraction Noob ScotlandPosts: 288 The Mix Regular

    It’s ok child

    I’m here with you.

     

    It’s ok to be scared,

    I know mummy won’t hurt you.

     

    I know because I’ve been here,

    Because I am you.

     

    I came back to hold your hand, through this nightmare.

     

    I’ll stay all night if I have to,

    I’ll guard the door.

     

    Don’t worry I got you.

     

    I’m here to protect you,

     

    I know you feel alone,

    I know it’s horrible what your going through,

     

    I know you can’t tell a soul even though you want to,

     

    But I promise my child you will see tomorrow,

     

    Now get some rest, I’ll protect you.

    LorryTruck
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