Voices (TW)

ellie2000

If u put a screwdriver in ur head, will it stop auditory hallucinations and flashbacks. Like ur reliving the experience. N is it normal for it to happen every year on the same month tht it hpd coz u didn't let anyone no

dancertori

i wish putting a screwdriver in head stopped auditory hallicinations and flash backs, but doubt it, i can confirm tinfoil hats don't work. 

I know for me things always are worse around the time of trauma annerverseries, its normal for things to be worse.

sending you hugs ellie, here if u need to chat.xx

_AJ_

hey lovely,
I wish... sorry to hear things are so tough. I also find stuff really hard around certain dates and anniversaries. There are ways to make it easier, I promise, and it will in time change. No means through the other side myself, so really feel your pain. 

Sending love, prayers and hugs. Always here to talk, 
Aj xxx

ellie2000

... When I start thinking it won't go away until I go to bed

BubblesGoesBoo

have you tried writing down your thoughts? that's helped me loads its all about finding distractions that work for you to get the thoughts to go away, do you have any distractions that work?

ellie2000

Wat I hear in my head r the chavs shouting happily to eachother, while im having flashbacks of them torturing me n egging the two men on to r_pe me, wen they were finished with me they got up and got dressed and walked away leaving me naked  shivering in the dark April night

_AJ_

Hey @ellie2000
I'm so sorry this happened to you, you really didn't deserve it and I am sorry you keep reliving such a horrendous experience. Have you spoken to anyone about it at all, or told them about the flashbacks you are experiencing? I get flashbacks as well and find them really scary; what tends to help me is grounding techniques and fact checking. Have you found anything that works? 
Take care- always here to talk,
AJ xx

ellie2000

 Wats grounding and fact checking?

_AJ_

Grounding is when you try to focus on what is around you in your environment. I use something known as the 54321 technique often. What you do is you name 5 things you can see, 4 you can touch, 3 you can hear, 2 you can smell and 1 you can taste. I also often do things as simple as writing down my name, age, birthday, what the date is, where I am: it all helps bring you into the present and remind you that the experience is not happening again. 

Fact checking is harder; it can often help if you feel comfortable telling someone what you are experiencing and then you can get them to help you. I tend to ask my friends if they heard something or saw something. Or, you can tell if others are reacting to what you are hearing to tell if it is real or a hallucination. It’s worth mentioning that just because others can’t hear it or see it, that doesn’t make it any less real for you. It just means that what you are experiencing no longer has the power to hurt you in the same way, though I know how painful memories can be.

something else that may help is interrogating thoughts to figure out if they are facts or opinions by essentially creating evidence for and against the belief. I have a sheet from my old therapist that may help with this if you’d like me to send it to you? 

Take care- much love, 
Aj xx

ellie2000

Yh plz 😊

Siena

Those flashbacks sound so distressing. I'm sorry that happened. While having flashbacks it can be good to focus on the here and now. Like touching something around you to try to ground yourself. Its understandable that this is a hard time for you atm. Please stay safe! You didnt deserve to be treated that way and hopefuly with time you can manage the vioces and flashbacks