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Traumatic Smear

Hi...
so I had my first smear yesterday. Well I say my first one... it was my first successful one. I’ve had four so far and 3 of them were failed and involved a lot of pain and crying and panic.
so I had my first smear yesterday. Well I say my first one... it was my first successful one. I’ve had four so far and 3 of them were failed and involved a lot of pain and crying and panic.
This first successful one was performed under general anaesthetic. Ever since it happened I just don’t feel right. I feel groggy and confused. I feel all my old traumas resurfacing and I don’t know what to do about it. It’s making me just want to hurt myself really badly because the pain is too much.
I’m worried that when the results come back they’ll say the sample was insufficient which means I’d have to go through the process all over again or that there’s something wrong.
I know you’re meant to have no memory of “surgery” when you’re under a GA but that thought is even more terrifying to me. I just can’t let anyone in and I’m just scared of everything in general.
Nothing feels safe anymore.
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it's normal to feel groggy after general anaesthetic, if this doesn't go away in a few days could you maybe speak to your GP/nurse?
do you have a support system in place to help you with the trauma's resurfacing?
I know I felt the same after my smear so you're not alone, the most important thing is to talk about it! it just gets worse if you bottle it up so well done on reaching out here for support.
do you have any grounding techniques you can use when things become overwhelming?
it's normal to be scared after GA, but try not let the thoughts about it take over again, you are stronger than them,, even if it feels you're not. we all believe you can beat this.
as for worrying about if the test was insufficient, have you heard back yet? anxiety makes us jump to the worse case scenario, but trust they know how to do their jobs, im sure it will be fine
I'm so sorry you experienced this - it sounds as though you've been really brave to keep trying after the 3 previous tests went wrong. How are you feeling now you've had a little time to recuperate?