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trigger warning - thoughts about hurting myself

itsquietuptownitsquietuptown Posts: 21 Confirmed not a robot
i’ve hurt myself quite a lot over the last four years or so, going through periods of doing it regularly but not badly and other times of it being rarer but more severe. recently i’ve been having thoughts about it every day, randomly throughout the day but then in the evening when i’m going to bed they’re very loud. it’s getting harder and harder not to give in. i only manage not to because i know it would hurt my boyfriend and make him sad. i’ve tried quite a few coping/distraction techniques but my mind is too aware that i’m trying to distract myself and just won’t let me. these thoughts are so hard to manage and i’m just not in a great place at the moment.

for the last two or three weeks i’ve been consistently pretty low with a lot of breakdowns and anxiety, and have been feeling like i need more help and support than i currently have. i spoke to a teacher who used to help me a lot who i hadn’t spoken to for six months or so, and she said i should go back to my gp. she also said she’ll try and set up a meeting with her, my school counsellor, my mum and my head of year so that everyone is on the same page and we can make a plan. i don’t tell my mum anything and my family don’t talk about feelings at all. i’m struggling so much. everything feels too much and i feel guilty that i’m not happy when i have such a wonderful boyfriend who cares about me and i hate that even when i’m with him and have been having a good time and feeling good i then still get low and i know that i’m a burden to him and that he gets frustrated with me. i just feel lost
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  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,935 Extreme Poster
    I'm so sorry you're struggling like that. It sounds horrible :(

    Do you think you will go back to your GP? Do you know why you want to hurt yourself, because it calms you down for example?

    Has anything happened that makes you think your boyfriend gets frustrated with you, or is it a general feeling? I understand feeling guilty for not being happy, but sometimes the wonderful people or things in our lives can't make us happy or change a problem, and that's okay and not something to feel guilty for <3

    You say you've been feeling like you need more help and support than you have right now - we're always here to support you and if I can do anything for you, please just ask :)
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 3,535 Community Veteran
    edited December 2019
    Hey @itsquietuptown  

    Do you feel able to go back to your GP? I think it would really help, its hard cycle to get out of and you really need as much support around you as possible.

    Do you think the meeting your teacher suggested will help? my family don't talk much about feelings either but since becoming aware of my problems they have been more open with it.

    I really hope things start looking up for you soon! As @Kathleen07 said we're always here to support you :) <3
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''  
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