Brain on fire

Jellyelephant

Brain on fire 

Alarm bells blaring 

Danger. 

They say the fuse is too sensitive 

They say it’s a false alarm 

But every person that surrounds me is a bomb

Tick, tick, tick 

I don’t know what will make them blow 

I never knew in the past 

Uncertainty is my certainty 

I was always a trigger to his switch 

A cruel word

His hand met my skin. 

Thump. 

Two bodies become one 

I did not want it; I did not choose it 

Am I frozen with fear

Or is it his hands locking me in place 

They say that I’m safe 

My experiences tell me otherwise

My past leaks into the present day 

Confusion floods my mind 

Days float past me, weeks blur into one 

I do not feel love, I do not feel trust 

There are always conditions 

My mood plummets and I hit the floor 

It is dark and I am fearful; I fear myself 

I wish the life inside me would be extinguished 

I pray for the end 

But it never comes 

Former Member

This is really good It's really expressive and beautiful.

I'm so sorry you've experienced that x

Jellyelephant

Kathleen07 said:

This is really good It's really expressive and beautiful.

I'm so sorry you've experienced that x

Aw thanks that’s so kind. I have never showed anyone my writing before x