It's bad (trigger)

ellie2000

I wanna die

Past User

really sorry you feel this way, here to talk if you need

Past User

it's good that you have therapy on friday, means you have some support coming up which will help you go over how you've been feeling - I'm not sure, given I havent used shout yet, but I am going to look and think now, see if I can help you

ellie2000

I don't feel like the head stuff has ended. Ppl haven't apologized. I feel that they chickened Out. Once i get told stuff it sticks añd i go down in a spiral

ellie2000

N i still think about the sexual assault

ellie2000

I self harmed b4

ellie2000

N i didn't feel better

Past User

Spiral is a good word to describe it, since we feel awful, and think terrible things in turn, which makes us even more depressed. It's a horrible cycle that you don't fix in one go. But just like the bad cycles, starting to think even one positive thing helps a lot. Here I have the image I was sent for shout.

ellie2000

How do ppl sleep without worrying about stuff

Past User

Strange to post on here though  

ellie2000

My therapy is nearly finished. Wat do i do

Past User

there is always more support available, have you told your therapist that you are worried about what happens when you run out of time?

ellie2000

Thanks, r ppl aware of wat ppl feel. Why do they say.     'youre lucky, there's ppl worse off than u'

ellie2000

I haven't, should i tell a neighbor how i feel

Past User

that's something I often think that about myself and it's never helpful. What I've been through is awful, but there always different types of problems and everybody reacts differently and struggles differently. If you're somebody that can deal with things easily then great, but if you're not, you deserve the help you need to get through it. Anybody who says that is a fool a not worth listening to.

Past User

some of the things I've had have been awful, but there will things you've gone through that I could never understand or compare to. If you're able, try to focus on yourself and getting the help you need -- you're doing well to be talking about your problems on here, it's brave.

ellie2000

I'm losing interest in stuff, socializing, school, clubs tht i go to. I don't know if ppl think bad things of me or not

Past User

and sorry I missed the message, if you have a therapy session soon you should ask about what happens after you're finished, since you're worried about it.

ellie2000

I don't see there's any good stuff now.

Past User

ask yourself how you tend to think of others - do you think bad things about the people you see and know? it's unlikely that others think of you differently, part of being in a low mood and bad cycle of thinking, is that we always think worse of ourselves than we do of others

Past User

you said you enjoy playing games? what have been your favourites recently? and I could recommend some if you'd like

ellie2000

Everyone i hang with r bullies in the end
I been playing: the metro games, long dark, rdr2 and far cry 5

ellie2000

I also have a gog and steam

Past User

havent played long dark before, but I've finished all the others. The metro games are amazing, have you played the witcher 3 before? I recently finished another playthrough.

ellie2000

I haven't, i like first person shooter games best

ellie2000

Kholat is gd

Past User

then I'd recommend fallout new vegas ^^ very good story and world, a lot of things to do, a shooter and everything

Past User

at the moment I'm really excited for borderlands 3 and cyberpunk 2077, looking forward to them a lot

ellie2000

If u download 'save edit' u can go to highest level on borderlands 2 and explode tht d34 robot thingy. 

ellie2000

Set the ammo and health to ,99999999 asw ell

ellie2000

Level 60