Loosing my best friend
On Friday I said goodbye to my best friend of 5 years. Those years were hell, particularly for her, and we were both finding it impossible to put ourselves back together again while we were holding onto the past. So it's gonna be a very long time before I see or speak to her again. Even though it was hard, I love her so much and we had really good moments together. I really really miss her. I wish it didn't have to be this way. I hate that it happened. None of it should have happened. I know what I'm feeling is grief, it feels stupid to be this upset when she hadn't died and part of the problem was we both thought she would have been dead a while ago. But it still really hurts.