What Should I Do Involving A Girl I Love
I'm in love with a girl! Full on infatuation with this girl I love her to pieces and I have done for over a year. She's the love of my life and I've known her for over a year. She makes me the happiest person in the world and hearing her voice calms me down while seeing a picture of her makes me feel complete. We met over Pinterest and we clicked instantly. Her friends after hearing about me said to her that she should marry me and honestly that made me feel so happy to hear that. She's honestly the most brilliant girl on the planet and she's gone through so much with her health and I'm so proud of her it's unreal.
Problem is she's 9000 miles away, I live in England and she's all the way in Australia. And now she's dating a guy and it breaks my heart because I love her and I wish I could just be there for her physically and hold her in my arms. To love and cherish her with every part of me.
She's told me she loves me multiple times and that she wants me to come see her, something I want to do badly and that I melt her heart. She's already planned dates for us and she's most caring and sweet girl I know. She's creative, smart, beautiful and I'm truly in love with her. It just kills me she's got a boyfriend again as her last one hurt her badly.
I want to send her a promise ring to show her that my heart, my body and my love belongs to her and I'm only hers. I've had nightmares about her death recently and I cried out "no not my wife" and woke up panicking and in a cold sweat. I cried over her a couple days ago, she's the only person that makes me cry honestly. It's been so long since I've heard anything from her, so long since we spoke I just want to tell her everything, confess it all again and wear my heart on my sleeve. I love her so much she brings me the most happiness but also the most pain in her absence.
What do I do? Is it normal to feel this way? I can't give up on her...