depression at work (waitressing)
was wondering if anyone had the same problem when they started working. I'm a 17 year old girl and have been in a couple of jobs but they've always been up and down because of my depression.
for the past few weeks I've been in a really bad depressive episode and it's so difficult to talk to people , and be myself, because my mind is so foggy. I find it difficult go up to speak to my colleagues in a friendly way because of anxiety, and I can't think of anything to say because of depression .
I hate living in this repressive state, I just want to feel something. I find that when someone talks to me first it gives me energy to keep going. when I have a successful conversation, and we laugh, it feels rewarding and special. it's like I think about it at the end of the day and it makes me smile
I want to connect with people, so fit in, so badly, but it's so hard with my current state
shall I let my work know about it?
the thing that's preventing me from telling a manager about my anxiety and depression is that they'll fire me, because I'm not reaching a good waitress standard, or they will act more awkward around me because they're aware Im sensitive or whatever
does anyone know any ideas to let go in the moment? I'm sick of being so stuck in my head at work