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Just for a day
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It's 1am, all I can think about is self-harming. I haven't thought bout this a long time, the one day when you expect to be happy and not at all depressed is the one day you are. I wanted to make happy and good memories this year on this day. I doubt what will happen.
Just for a day with anxiety, autism, being asexual, being a carer and having dyslexia could just go away! Even if it comes back with evenengence I don't care I just want 1 day. It's been years since I felt normal and not a carer.
Just 1 day is all I ask!!!
Just for a day with anxiety, autism, being asexual, being a carer and having dyslexia could just go away! Even if it comes back with evenengence I don't care I just want 1 day. It's been years since I felt normal and not a carer.
Just 1 day is all I ask!!!
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Just checking, are you safe right now? Please find a place where you are safe and there aren't any items close by that could hurt you.
:O I have Anxiety and Dyslexia too, it can be very hard not to let them rule you. Try to think of it this way, you have anxiety and dyslexia, but thats not who you are.
What happened to make you feel like this? And is there a way you can have a day just for yourself, relaxing and doing things that you enjoy?
I hope you are able to get through this without hurting yourself. Even if its very, perhaps there is something relaxing you can do now?
Let us know how you are doing,
@Floxy On bit of information i missed on my orginial post is i am Anorexic as well and i believe in if i don't have those 3 meals that day then a reward is not due. I will take a look at that link. My day (Saturday) Was how to put it work would of been a lot better than what happened today even though its meant to be a celebration day. Honouring your scars and embrace them? The idea of Self-harming is to relieve stress and pressure from yourself and inflict it on yourself and keep them to yourself - That might just be me but most people i know prefer to keep them to themself.
Overall add all the labels i have (Anorexic, i am asexual, anxiety, being a carer and dyslexia) equals to 5 labels. At 17 i don't think someone should have that many labels especial not have them all coursing issues on your 17th Bday. Asexual - boyfriend blocked me because we broke up as i faked having feeling for him, Anorexia - only eat 1 meal today, Anxiety - Leaving the house and travelling, dyslexia - reading peoples messages and being a carer no break from that. So not at all simple am I?
Speak soon
Abi
As for labels, they exist to help others understand you as well as to help you describe yourself to others. But they don't define who you are, they are'nt you, they just exist to help you explain yourself.
I have dyslexia too and when I tell people they get all sorts of wrong ideas, its very annoying at times. So I think of it this way, I am not 'Dyslexic', its not who I am. I am just a person who happens to have Dyslexia. I didn't choose it so I should'nt let it define me. Sometimes it does and things can be hard, but I don't want to be labelled, remembered or thought about by a part of me I didn't get a choice in.
Its the same as how I feel about gender or sexuality, I didn't choose those things, I discovered them. So I get to decide if I am defined by them or not. You are You. I hope that makes sense, its a difficult feeling to put into words. The choices you make are who you are, not the things you didn't get to choose, nor the words other people use to describe you. I understand if you disagree, everyone has different ideas when it comes to using labels.
You are able to get though this difficult part of your life, its great you reached out when you did rather than hurting yourself. Please remember you can reach out again whenever you find yourself in a bad state
but i notice you give yourself these labels- many have their own struggles and diffculties and i dont mean to minimise how youre feeling - i cant imagine how hard must be -just to reassume you youre not alone. And that once we only see them as these massive problems- than it is made more hard to deal with. And you add asexuality with it?. But why is that a problem? Idk much about it. But It is just who you are and it might make other people confused or not understand and make relationships more diffcult but that is not your sexal orintation faults. Youll find someone who can be understanding and supportive to it.
Maybe there wont be a day where you wont struggle with these things. Im sure anyone will jump at the oportunity for a day with no struggle. But im sure there will be a day where youre in a happier place and learning how to manage your life along these things
I just wanted to check in to see how you are doing today
I don't really have anything to add to what has already been said, but know we are always here for you.
Your not alone and we are here if you want to talk about things, sending hugs!!
Hey, Thank you to each of you. I am not 100% but I am better than I was. I am quickly typing this as i am hurrying out of the door in the next 5 minutes to meet a friend. I just want to say a big thank you you have helped me recover a lot quicker than i did this time last year.
Just for @shaunie as I was in a big hurry. Your comment was amazing and really helpful.
Edit,; after seeing your edit ;
Sorry. Im such a parniod mess:/. Really glad we could help! Keep letting us know how youre getting on if you want. We genuinely care