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Its not bad, but its not good
I've been in a relationship now for just about 3 years. We started off long distance as I met my her while visiting a friend at university. We lived about 4 hours from each other and I was making a trip down every 2 weeks. Last Winter (after she finished uni) she came with me to go on a ski season, this went well but i fear she did not get a kick out it like I did.
We have now have properly lived together in a new city for about 3 months. Although it may seem like things are all hunky dory I just don't feel right. There is something missing, and its definitely my doing. I just don't feel the same way about her as I did a year ago. I used to see a long future for us but now I can't even picture another year. We are meant to be doing another season next winter. Which I fear would end us, which would leave us stuck together, far away from home and (most probably) a bit on the skint side.
We've tried talking about us, where we are going in the relationship (tears shortly followed the conversation starting) and the possibility of me going to do a season on my own this winter, which was decided that it would probably end us. The conversation came and went for about week. Each time tears came very shortly after starting. She clearly cares for me a great deal. I care for her more than I've ever cared for anyone before, all I want is for her to be happy, safe and to be loved the way she deserves.
I do not feel that I am the right person to do this, but I also don't know if i'm just being stupid and going to throw away what could be a good thing.
To sum up - I'm very confused, and I can't keep it off my mind.