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Hi again :)

apandavapandav Posts: 2,072 Boards Champion

My name is Amanda, I’m 20 and from Scotland. I joined these forums in 2015 when it was “TheSite” , I’ve not been on in a while but thought I’d say hi again :)

Sadly still struggling a lot with my mental health, I have Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and anxiety. Still struggling a lot, ended up staying in hospital overnight Tuesday to Wednesday this week.. I still live with my parents, and they now know again I’m struggling again (cause obviously had to tell them I was staying overnight in hospital). I’m 20 years old, can be mature in ways yet I still have a lot of growing up to do emotionally. Things with parents have been tough, Mum apologised for stuff she said in past and they want to support me. But I still have difficulty opening up to them. Sorry was supposed to keep this brief update but I’ve just went off on a tangent.

I’m still a university student, I’m now in 3rd year. Somehow made it through another year, too many breakdowns but somehow passed. Just started back as a 3rd year in September, but my mental health has been poorly so it’s affected my uni and I’ve missed a lot. I’ve now went part time and, meaning I’ll be in 3rd year this year and next year. That doesn’t really bother me, I still need structure of uni but like full time is too much right now and I need to look after my mental health more. But despite moving to part time still ended up at hospital on Tuesday this week :/

Basically coming back here after 6months to a year (honestly don’t know how long, lost track of time), not that much further forward.

Anyways sorry for going off again, hi, how is everyone ?

Amanda x


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    BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Posts: 3,590 Community Veteran
    Heeey! Been a while! I have eupd too, so i know how tough it is :no: I'm sorry to hear you're still struggling, but well done for sticking uni out! It's the little positives we have to hold onto. It's good to see you back and to have a friendly face around :)
    Bubbles :heart:
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''  
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    RhysRhys Posts: 288 The Mix Regular
    Hey @apandav I think i remember seeing you in chat a few times (I could be wrong). Sorry to hear your still having problems, hopefully things start to lookup a bit at least.

    Welcome back to the forums though :wave:
    “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.”― Bernard M. Baruch
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    apandavapandav Posts: 2,072 Boards Champion
    Hi Bubbles, nice to see you on here again. EUPD is soooooo tough :/:)
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    apandavapandav Posts: 2,072 Boards Champion
    Hi @Rhys , yeah you would’ve saw me on chat :)

    Thanks :)
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    independent_independent_ Community Champion Posts: 8,678 Legendary Poster
    Hey Amanda,

    I remember you, very well, so hi again. I'm Eleanor (used to go by Elle if that helps you to know who I am) I'm 14 and also from Scotland.

    Im sorry to hear you're still struggling. It's great to have you back.
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
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    JustVJustV Community Manager Posts: 5,348 Part of The Furniture
    Good to have you back, @apandav! Nice to see a familiar face returning. :)
    The truth resists simplicity.
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    SienaSiena Posts: 15,565 Skive's The Limit
    Welcome back!
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
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    AifeAife Community Manager Posts: 3,061 Boards Guru
    Welcome back Amanda, it's great to have you here :)
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
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