Sudden panic/feeling worthless/doubting self :(

Former Member

Stupidly I've let something really get at me this evening and it's stirred up a load of rubbish, low, worthless feelings and currently led going over in my mind how much of stupid, pathetic, worthless person I clearly am it's taken so much work with my mh team and specialist support worker to get me to where I am and now I'm questioning why? About everything why am I here? Why did I let things happen? Why am I such a stupid person? Which obviously I am. All I tried to do was to try and help with some type of explanation and it's left me in such a state.
Currently having a huge anxiety attack, thanks to flashbacks - which I haven't had for a while in tears & shaking fearing past events I feel like this huge pressure is weighing down on my chest & I cant get that control:sense of safety back I hate getting to this stage. I feel so empty and worthless. I've tried grounding but my minds going round & round I can't think straight. I'm not in crisis so the crisis team aren't any use. Feel like texting everything g I feel to my support worker but worried incase her phone is on and it goes off or something. Just in a huge mess and don't know what to do right now why am I so fucking stupid

I'm sorry for the rambling post but thought getting it out my head and down might help

Former Member

hey Louu,

Great to see that you used this space to try and help yourself. No need to apologise for the rambling, it's welcome anytime So sorry to hear you were feeling so low. While I know it's just words, I truly believe that you are very worthy, not worthless. it's so easy to get down on ourselves, but know that even when you have a hard time seeing your worth and strength, it is so clear to me (and others).

How are you getting on today? I hope getting to sleep helped.

Hugs! *hug*

- Mica

Jellyelephant

Hey Louu,

I just wanted to say I don;t think you are stupid or worthless at all - in fact quite the opposite. You are brave and strong and full of potential, you have got through so much and made it out the other side. I think that makes you very special. You aren;t stupid because of things that have happened to you, you're a survivor and you did your best. None of it was your fault, I want you to remember that.

I hope you managed to get some sleep and are feeling better today,
Sending love & hugs x

Former Member

mica wrote: »

hey Louu,

Great to see that you used this space to try and help yourself. No need to apologise for the rambling, it's welcome anytime So sorry to hear you were feeling so low. While I know it's just words, I truly believe that you are very worthy, not worthless. it's so easy to get down on ourselves, but know that even when you have a hard time seeing your worth and strength, it is so clear to me (and others).

How are you getting on today? I hope getting to sleep helped.

Hugs! *hug*

- Mica

Thank you Mica! I'm better than I felt last night but not great as a lot of doubt going around in my head but I'll be okay. I let things get to me too easily which is stupid in itself!

Thank you for the lovely words

Former Member

Jellyelephant wrote: »

Hey Louu,

I just wanted to say I don;t think you are stupid or worthless at all - in fact quite the opposite. You are brave and strong and full of potential, you have got through so much and made it out the other side. I think that makes you very special. You aren;t stupid because of things that have happened to you, you're a survivor and you did your best. None of it was your fault, I want you to remember that.

I hope you managed to get some sleep and are feeling better today,
Sending love & hugs x

Jelly - you are just amazing girl!! You always know what to say! Thank you so much for everything - simply fab!! I need to stop things getting at me so much. But I will get there one day, keep pushing through! Thanks lovely