Drinking out of control

KaydenKKaydenK Posts: 204 Two little ducks
Hello, so i have been drink binging to deal with my emotions and domestic abuse. Tomorrow i see my alcohol worker, im scared but wont let anyone belittle my issues, im at the point where im afraid i will just speak my mind.. to my alcohol worker, to anyone.. im sick of judgements. Ive drunk everyday for the past 2 years except hospital admissions.. ive drunk 2 bottles of 10.5% of wine tonight and im just tipsy.. im afraid my alcohol issues will get worse.

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  • Jacob101Jacob101 Rampant Poster Posts: 673 Incredible Poster
    Hello Kayden,

    I am so sorry to hear that you are still struggling with alcohol; you sound very stressed about your health and you are worried that your drinking problem will only get worse and that you are scared about getting judged in regards to the issue, is that right? - the underlying problem of domestic abuse seems to be causing you a lot of distress and it seems like you have turned to alcohol which acts like a coping mechanism.

    I would advise you to speak openly and honestly to your alcohol worker because at the end of the day, that person is there to help you. Have you spoken to anyone about how much the domestic abuse is effecting you?, tried anything in the past which helped, even if it's just a little?

    Hope things start looking up soon.
    Jessica People

    *hug*
    'Don't worry about failures, worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try.'
  • FeatheredDreamsFeatheredDreams Posts: 91 Miniposter
    You're not alone with that experience. As a part of my work, i speak with recovered drug addicts, former alcoholics are amongst the group I work with on community projects...and they have seen (and one experienced) similar- what i'm saying is don't worry, your alcohol worker has likely seen your sitatuation before (a LOT of cases of drug abuse are related to domestic abuse in one way or another). They should be trained to deal with a case like this, so don't hold it in- you should be as truthful with them as you can!

    And you're afraid your issues will get worse right? That just shows you don't want to drink as much, and a little willpower goes a long way in recovery!
  • KaydenKKaydenK Posts: 204 Two little ducks
    Hi both, thanks for replying.

    I have now given up because i saw my alcohol worker today and her boss was in the meeting with us to tell me that their service will no longer be supporting me because i need more help with housing and mental health mostly.. so there we fucking are! Im left with nobody to turn to now and no suplort. Fucking great!!
  • micamica Moderator Posts: 98
    Hi KaydenK,

    That must be incredibly frustrating to feel like so many people are letting you down. I know it is hard, but I really encourage you to practice self-care in any way you feel like you can manage right now. It sounds like you know your drinking is an issue and in the long run you want it to stop, so maybe you can challenge yourself to refrain from buying more alcohol? In terms of your housing, you mentioned on another thread that you had a meeting with your housing adviser yesterday. How did that go? If you are looking for another option for housing, you might consider contacting Centrepoint (https://centrepoint.org.uk/what-we-do/housing/) if you haven't already. Their organisation works with young people in difficult housing situations, and they could be of some help to you.

    Wishing you the best and sending you positive thoughts!
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,769,851 The Mix Honorary Guru
    You should go on the therapy and work on this. Drinking is caused by your emotions...
  • KaydenKKaydenK Posts: 204 Two little ducks
    Hi everyone sorry i havent posted in a while.. my drinking is out of control, i drink 5 cans everynight and its increasing. I tried not to drink but i just cant stop thinking about it. My support workers dont know. I just feel nice and numb when i drink, it takes things away.. but i can see im getting too used to it.
  • DreaDrea Posts: 292 Cool Newbie
    Hey KaydenK,

    It's nice to hear from you again! I've read what you wrote on the other thread too and just want you to know that you're incredibly brave, and as Mike said, you're a valued member of this community! It sounds like you're going through a really tough time at the moment which may be why the drinking has increased. Often people use substances such as alcohol as a coping mechanism, and as I'm sure you know it can be dangerous. However, it's always good that you talk about these things because then we can offer you the support! Have you checked out this article? http://www.themix.org.uk/drink-and-drugs/addiction/what-is-addiction-9708.html

    Here is a link for some support particularly for the alcohol abuse:
    - https://www.drinkaware.co.uk/advice/

    Hope you have a great day and hope to hear from you soon!
    Drea:heart:*hug*
  • KaydenKKaydenK Posts: 204 Two little ducks
    Hi Drea,

    Thanks for those kind words. Thank you for the links too i will have a look. I just need alcohol to forget and feel numb again. Soo many worries. So many things going on. Not been on my anti psychotic meds. Loaing the plot. Alcohol takes it away.
  • MikeMike Posts: 1,088 Moderator
    Heya Kayden, how are you getting on? :)
    'Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?'

    < 3

  • KaydenKKaydenK Posts: 204 Two little ducks
    Hey Mike, not that great regarding alcohol usage. Im up to 6 cans of cider a night now. Cant seem to stop myself.
  • DreaDrea Posts: 292 Cool Newbie
    Hey Kayden,

    Just checking in with how you're doing? Hope it's all going a bit better.

    Speak soon,
    Drea:heart:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,769,851 The Mix Honorary Guru
    KaydenK wrote: »
    Hi everyone sorry i havent posted in a while.. my drinking is out of control, i drink 5 cans everynight and its increasing. I tried not to drink but i just cant stop thinking about [FONT=&quot]spel [/FONT]it. My support workers dont know. I just feel nice and numb when i drink, it takes things away.. but i can see im getting too used to it.


    Hey Kayden how is it going? Even though you don't want to you should share this with your support workers! I know you are sick of judgments but maybe they can help you?


  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,769,851 The Mix Honorary Guru
    KaydenK wrote: »
    Hello, so i have been drink binging to deal with my emotions and domestic abuse. Tomorrow i see my alcohol worker, im scared but wont let anyone belittle my issues, im at the point where im afraid i will just speak my mind.. to my alcohol worker, Tandläkare Uppsala to anyone.. im sick of judgements. Ive drunk everyday for the past 2 years except hospital admissions.. ive drunk 2 bottles of 10.5% of wine tonight and im just tipsy.. im afraid my alcohol issues will get worse.


    Sorry for the double post but just wanted to check up again! How are you doing?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,769,851 The Mix Honorary Guru
    KaydenK wrote: »
    Hello, so i have been drink binging to deal with my emotions and domestic abuse. Tomorrow i see my alcohol worker, im scared but wont let anyone belittle my issues, im at the point where im afraid i will just speak my mind.. to my alcohol worker, Tandläkare Uppsala to anyone.. im sick of judgements. Ive drunk everyday for the past 2 years except hospital admissions.. ive drunk 2 bottles of 10.5% of wine tonight and im just tipsy.. im afraid my alcohol issues will get worse.


    Sorry for the double post but just wanted to check up again! How are you doing?
  • MirabelleMirabelle Owl Whisperer Kensington.Posts: 1,020 Fanatical Poster
    KaydenK

    I'm sorry you have been having difficulties and struggling with alcohol, but you were brave to come to TheMix and ask for help. Posting takes a lot of courage, too, and I have seen how many of our community are looking out for you because they care. And I care, too. :)

    mica said about Centrepoint was very good, for the charity workers will do their utmost to house you even if it's temporary. Once on Centrepoint's web base they will follow you up though the responsibility is on you to update them even if it's a little bit and you are feeling rough.

    I have a fondness for Centrepoint. They were very good to me and my sisters when we needed them most.

    If you can, keep in contact,

    Belle
    'If you think education is expensive, try estimating the cost of ignorance'.

    - Howard Gardner
  • RhysRhys EnglandPosts: 234 Moderator
    Locking since this is an old thread.
    “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.”― Bernard M. Baruch
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