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  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Shaunie, have you been moved to another hospital?
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Yeah and its twice and worse and the first one. Didn't think it was possible. Except im allowed my charger and most things. And ive gone to 15 check to 1 hour.
    I haven't spoke to any patients and probably wont. Last night i was just people watching and its like im not there. Its so pointless, i just want treatment and go but im still being observed
    ive spend most of my morning just sitting out side by myself just staring at nothing. I think nearly everyone is formal and want to be here but i just want to go. But im seeing the doctor today
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Tell the psychiatrist that being in this environment is making you more unhappy and that you'd like to be moved to somewhere more appropriate. A centre for people with eating disorders would be a much nicer place and would be more helpful to you.
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Robert wrote: »
    Tell the psychiatrist that being in this environment is making you more unhappy and that you'd like to be moved to somewhere more appropriate. A centre for people with eating disorders would be a much nicer place and would be more helpful to you.

    Thank you but ive said this and they wont allow it because tbey think im asking so i can escape their too as i would be able to
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Are you on a locked ward?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Did you see a psychiatrist today?
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Yeha its a locked ward. And even if i do get out of the first locked door theres still another one. Yet i still try hard to go. Like today i was really upset and havent eaten anything for newrly 4 days. Which is probably making me stay longer. I packed all my stuff and went to the office i asked someone random "could you let me leave please, im not a patient anr just came to visist" i was so very close to leaving. So because of how i was i didnt see the doctor unfortunately.
    I get that trying to leave isnt helping and not eating. But i still do it. Starting from tomorrow im going to eat and not try and leave. Get taken off food and fluid chart. And just wait for treatment. Quicker way to leave.
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Have your family and friends visited you?
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    My familyhave visited me nearly everyday for about 2 hours. My friends dont know
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Are you still on the same locked ward?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
    Shaunie, how you getting on? x
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Im still on the same ward. I can go out now for like 30minutes to an hour but with someone. The doctor wrote that i could go by myself but then all of a sudden i wasnt allowed any un escorted leave. So that just really annoyed me.
    Im hardly eating and not cause im trying to lose weight. I just hate going to get the food, let alone eating with everyone else. For somw reason i just feel judged if i go get something to eat. Like im fat yet everyone needs to eat. I feel so weak and from not eating ive had urges to just binge eat but i cant even do that. So i self harmed in a way i never do and they found out when they did the weekly obs.
    In this ward ive hardly spoke to anyone. I cant relate to anyone or want to get involved with any groups. Literally can not stand it. The staff are all lovely though
    Tomorrow im going Tescos with two members of staff. Ive been thinking about runing away but i dont think its worth it.
    Thank you for asking x
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Are you still being held under section?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
    Can you eat on your room? That's what I did sometimes. Like you said everyone needs to eat so try not to let it bother you if you feel like people are looking at you ect. Go and get your food tomorrow and eat in the communal room and be brave and proud that you did. Don't look at anyone else.

    Ah no don't runaway, you won't get away. Do the nurses on the ward carry buzzers with them incase they need more assistance?

    If you don't get on with the other patients maybe just keep your bond with the nurses you have x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    When you're allowed off the ward, you can buy better food.
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Today i managed to eat small portion of chips with everyone else in the communal area. I found it really hard but did it eventually. Wasnt as loud as it normaly is. I can eat in my room, just makes me feel even weirder not being able to eat with every one. And tbey sometimes bring it to my room to see if i eat it. Or take me to the "quiet room"
    But my family bring me some food because its not the best food.
    The nurses have buzzer things but not sure if that works outside of the ward?
    Last night i was caught not swallowing my sleeping pills or not actually put it in my mouth. Which caused at right scene cause it took me awhile to admit. Was just collecting them to overdose. Now they have to check my mouth every time which i hate.
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hey Shaunie,
    I'm really sorry about the situation you're in, it sucks that they don't understand. But I'm really glad you managed to eat today :)
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I know what you mean about eating whilst surrounded by a bunch of strangers. All the noise from other people eating and clanking their cutlery against their plates - as well as the smell from their food - is annoying.
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Thank you both for replying.
    Its getting worse. They have taken my room key off on me. So i have to ask when i want to go in my room and had to spend most of my day in the communal area. And people watch. Because when they was doing bed round, i came in when i was purging.
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
    Sending hugs shaunie

    Missing you in chats x
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Im now off my section. My 28 days are over on Thursday but i saw the doctor today and it was either going to section 3 or being informal. I did refuse to stay in hospital but they said they woukd assess me for section 3 and most likely be under that. So ive choose the easier way.
    But i can't go out by my self because i did that and came back with pills and barricaded my self in my room
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Have you been told how long they're planning to keep you in hospital?

    Are you still on a locked ward?
  • Former MemberFormer Member The Mix Posts: 292 The Mix Regular
    Hey Shaunie,
    Hope you're doing okay! You're really brave for going through all of this as it can be quite daunting. But really well done, and you should be very proud of yourself! Is there anything that you know could potentially make you happier that someone could help with? It's great that you're speaking to us here to! Just know you have our full support :)

    Hope everything goes smoothly, and speak soon :D
    Drea:heart:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Are there any plans for what will happen when you leave hospital?
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