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Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
Eeek just sharing some good news

1)I haven't self harmed for the last few days which has been really hard especially on Monday night but I was thinking I'm going to go swimming in the next few days so I don't want fresh wounds and I have been swimming today. I did 20 lengths (I havent been in such a long time) and I'm going to go every week now. My old support worker would be so proud of me (I used to go swimming with her) and my new support worker is proud also.

And 2)I was just walking to the swimming baths and had a call back from my local rape and sexual violence project and FINALLY my face 2 face specialist counselling starts next Thursday! I am relieved but also because it has been such a long wait I have lost sense in the importance and what to say. However I have my medical review a week today with CAMHS (the day before my counselling starts) and I'm scared if I tell them my counselling starts the next day CAMHS will discharge me.

You know what it's like you can't be with 2 services can you😐 OH NO

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  • AoifeAoife Community Manager Posts: 3,228 Boards Guru
    Hey Steph,

    You are doing so well, you should be so proud of yourself. That is really great that you've got into swimming and are planning to go every week. That is good news about your face to face specialist counselling I understand that the wait can be really long. It sounds like you are worried about being discharged by CAMHS which is understandable as they have been supporting you and it's difficult for that support to just end. I found this really great article on YoungMinds about CAMHS here which explains that the CAHMS team should take into account your feelings and opinions before deciding when your treatment should end. Have you experienced being with two services before?
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,680 Skive's The Limit
    Hey Steph
    Like Aife said well done and you should be proud. Nice to read good news.
    I know i found moving on from CAMHS really hard. But they shouldnt just suddenly stop and might gradually stop. Say see you once every two weeks instead of once every week and gradual. CAMHS did that for me when i moved to adults. And they shouod ask you how you feel about it.
    At the moment iam with two services and being referred to a new one. So its possible. In havjng therpay with adults eating disorder and just with mental health services to help me get the right treatment for personlaity disorders. So they could still support you. If they still have referred and more care to do.
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • One-in-a-millionOne-in-a-million Posts: 606 Incredible Poster
    Excellent news Steph!!!!! 😃😃 so proud of you Xx

    I'm glad to hear that the counselling service has finally gotten back to you that's grate news.

    As for being with two services I'm afraid I have no information to offer as I have never used CHAMS. I know they normally say only use one service but I can't imagine CHAMS will just suddenly end your treatment.

    I noticed I was a bit late replying to this thred so I'm presuming you may or may not have spoken to them about it.
    Sorry I haven't been on lately decided to have a small brake which I feel grate for doing.

    Hope you're well
    EmmaXx
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
    Was wondering where you was. Hadn't seen you around OIAM.

    I'm glad you feel great for having a break though!

    I've got CAMHS at 12 tomorrow. I'm feeling upset tonight, don't really know, just had to have a little cry. I don't know wether I will be able to make it to my CAMHS APPOINTMENT. I'm really nervous, my support worker is coming with me though. I just hope I sleep soon so I don't feel the way I do now in the morning, just took my meds. So hope sleep is on the cards ASAP.

    Then my 1st face2face counselling session is at 9am on Thursday.

    My support worker has said not to tell CAMHS tomorrow that my first counselling session is Thursday. So they will keep me under there belt. So that way I'll be kept under 2 services.

    Goodnight lovely xxx
  • Former MemberFormer Member Moderator Deactivated Posts: 98 Budding Regular
    Hi Steph95!

    Just thought i'd pop in and wish you good luck today making it to and during your CAMHS appointment. It sounds like you've been doing really great recently, I hope everything goes smoothly!
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
    Thanks. I'm annoyed arghhhh! I thought my support worker would be back by the time I woke up and I woke up at 10:30. She's took another lady shopping (which I knew, well a different lady to that's actually gone) but she said she was going early so I thought she would be back by now. We have to leave in 40minutes. I'm a bit nervous about her coming with me tbh (but it's the first time I am going to this building so didn't want to go on my own first time) I've been in this house since October and me and my support worker have had many problems. She dosent know me yet so I don't want her..I don't know. Im annoyed she isn't back she isn't here to listen and reassure me and for me to talk to her about how I want the appointment to go.

    Thanks for the good luck.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,329 Wise Owl
    I went swimming yesterday too btw!

    The CAMHS appointment went OK my support worker was back in time. I've got a new care-co ordinator, I'm seeing her on Monday. Medication is still the same atm but the Dr said I shouldn't take a lorazepam everyday but I need to. We didn't mention my counselling starts tomorrow so hopefully they will pluck up their ideas. The Dr said he will see me as and when me and my care-co ordinator agrees I need to see him and he said his happy about that and I will be seeing my care-co ordinator once a fortnight I think but we haven't formally agreed that I suppose we will on Monday.

    Appointments done for today. Just a booked chat on kooth at 6pm then GC on here at 8pm :P

    I've just had a call though litcherally as I was typing this, from the rape and sexual violence project and the counsellor who I've got my first session with in the morning she is off ill so my first session starts next Thursday now!

    So I've got nothing on tomorrow or Friday now. Saturday I'm going to my mums just for the night and she is bringing me back Sunday.

    Then Monday I'm seeing my Care-co ordinator.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Moderator Deactivated Posts: 98 Budding Regular
    Hi Steph95,

    That all sounds really positive and like you have a pretty solid plan in place! You should be proud of yourself for reaching out to get the support you need. Great job on going swimming as well; it can be a nice break from all the doctor appointments! Sorry to hear your counselor canceled your appointment, but please let us know how everything progresses and have a good GC!
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