This is going to sound silly

Amy22 · January 4

I know this post will sound stupid and silly but then again most of my thoughts are to be fair. So I was playing on one of my games, persona 5 and it mentioned about fighting a boss that is an artist and plagarises. It triggered me a bit because I remember when I was in college sometimes I would copy drawings to help me learn. I haven't felt like this in a while and I guess it made me anxious. Sometimes I also find that when its my time of month (as I am female) I tend to get more anxious and will overthink things a lot. Sorry if you had to read this post.

Nemuritai · January 4

Hey @Amy22

It's not silly at all, I mean that. It's always valid to feel triggered, no matter what triggered you - those feelings are perfectly real and okay. I hope you're doing okay - sending hugs if you're comfortable

Nathan · January 4

@Amy22 Nothing your saying is silly at all. Copying art to help you learn isn't some villainous thing. Learning based off others is I'm guessing super helpful for learning new art techniques and styles, and isn't a bad thing at all. I've not played persona 5 personally, but based off it's wiki entry, the boss who does do plagiarise, doesn't just do that, but he also presents his students work entirely as his own, makes money and fame from the stolen art, and when students stop producing good art, he abandons them and destroys their careers. What the boss does is abusive plagiarism as it's called. Copying drawings to help you learn on the other hand isn't a bad thing and is in no way comparable.

I know this might sound silly, but the fact you feel anxious about it shows you have strong ethics, and having strong ethics makes you a good person, not a bad one.

Ech0 · January 5

@Amy22 No need to apologise as nothing of what you said is silly at all and what you’re feeling is completely valid and understandable. It takes a lot of courage to notice and speak about your thoughts and feelings which is admirable. The fact that something in a game could bring up memories from college shows how aware and reflective you are of your own experiences. Copying drawings to learn is such a natural part of growing, practicing and finding your own skills, and it doesn’t make you a bad person at all. It just shows that you were trying to learn and improve, which is something to be proud of.

It’s also completely natural that this memory brought up feelings of anxiety, especially when combined with the other things you notice about yourself, like the changes in your emotions around your time of the month. Our minds and bodies are connected in such complex ways, and it makes sense that certain moments can feel heavier or trigger old worries. Even when memories, games, or small triggers bring up uneasy feelings, they don’t change the kind, thoughtful, and capable person you are. You are allowed to breathe, to step back, to comfort yourself, and to remind yourself that these feelings are temporary, but your worth is constant. You are always cared for and valued, exactly as you are.

AnonymousToe · January 5

Don’t feel silly! I can remember you talking about this before. I dont know what you did with the copied drawings but the most important thing is that’s in the past and you’ve learnt from it. You don’t need to keep feeling guilty about it, but i know that doesn’t just make it go away. No need to apologise for posting

Amy22 · January 5

Aw thank you so much for your kind messages, it really means a lot. You probably know this is something that affects me a lot I guess, I don't know. I think yesterday I was just feeling down to be fair. I'm a very complex person I guess and I think it stems from wanting to do better and to be a better person to be fair. Im all about self development and being original. Today I was impulsive and unfollowed a favourite artist of mine but now im re-following them because I love their art and they also teach you how to doodle and stuff.

This is going to sound silly

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