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Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition) w/c 10.11.25

LeylaLeyla Community Manager Posts: 516 Incredible Poster
This is a space to chat or vent about things which you think may be more triggering for the Community but still want to get off your chest.

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  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    edited November 11
    im dreading college tomorrow. TW self-harm mention
    i want to self harm but i cant. :/
    Post edited by Leyla on
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    college wasnt actually that bad
  • NemuritaiNemuritai Posts: 412 Listening Ear
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    college wasnt actually that bad

    That's good to hear. Well done for getting there! <3
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    edited November 11
    TW suicidal thoughts
    CMHT are useless I’m so suicidal I can’t talk too much here I’m struggling so much and their response is we can speak to CRHT but it’s very unlikely CRHT will take you because there’s nothing they can do to help, we can refer you to hospital even though they acknowledged it would make me worse and get put on a waiting list to see a medic. Nothing to help me get through this unless it's stay in hospital, which I don't want at all. Asking questions like can I survive for 72 hours for a phone call... I mentioned my safety and how bad things were but it’s either go to hospital or nothing. It’s just CAMHS again, no care-coordinator etc.🙄. I’m so exhausted coping. I’m in so much pain. They told me to phone back if I'm struggling, I'm trying to get by each minute, I told them I'm now struggling constantly and they tell me to use a helpline, when things are this bad helplines are no help and I said that but whatever. They might phone me tomorrow so I will see what they say then, but I doubt it will be anything
  • LeylaLeyla Community Manager Posts: 516 Incredible Poster
    @Jack25 It sounds truly so tough right now when everything you are trying is getting shot down for one reason or another, and when you are already struggling so much I can imagine how disheartening and demotivating this could feel. It sounds like you really are trying to be honest with everyone to get them to see how desperate you are for this assistance, but that this isn't being heard seriously enough.

    You're doing so so well to be focusing on each minute and making it through each one no matter how torturous it might feel, we hear your pain and we are here for you even if that might not be enough to make a difference right now, but you are not alone in this suffering

    I completely hear that you might not want to stay in a hospital as it would not feel ideal for you and might not be the best environment, but would you feel able to make that call to 999 or 111 if you feel really unable to cope with these thoughts and feelings until that potential phone call tomorrow?

    We all sincerely hope that this phone call is helpful for you, more so than these previous ones have been, as we can all see how hard you are trying to get some help with how much you are struggling right now. Please keep us updated here on how it goes if that feels comfy for you!
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    Nemuritai wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    college wasnt actually that bad

    That's good to hear. Well done for getting there! <3

    thank you <3
  • Lottie5433Lottie5433 Community Connector Posts: 965 Part of The Mix Family
    I’m struggling a lot, a lot is happening really quickly and a lot of the time I don’t feel in control
    In a way I’m scared to go to peer support this week, I haven’t been for about 3 weeks maybe more. I just don’t know what I’d say as I feel like whatever I say I might raise significant concern and it’s like they said at that point they’d have to talk to others to ensure safety etc but it’s like idk how I feel about that if it was to happen.
    I’m debating not going and just seeing if I can get a wellbeing call eventually or see if they then contact me or what
    I just feel kinda stuck and with all the negative thoughts I’m having I just feel exhausted masking everything from everyone
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    CMHT rejected me from CRHT and now CMHT called saying I have to call 999 and go to A&E or go to NHS crisis centre suddenly they care. I’m so so exhausted.
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    Jack25 wrote: »
    CMHT rejected me from CRHT and now CMHT called saying I have to call 999 and go to A&E or go to NHS crisis centre suddenly they care. I’m so so exhausted.

    hey @Jack25 . are you safe rn? we care abt you <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    Yes I’m physical safe now thank you
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    do you still feel like you need to call 999 or go to a&e?
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    I’m safe I’m at my crisis centre CMHT told me to phone 999 or go to the crisis centre idk what’s going on I’m safe though physically thank you Eylah I hope you’re doing ok!
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    are they supporting you? i care abt you jack <3 you matter and you deserve to be supported through this difficult time in your life <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    edited November 14
    they Just took the piss and forced me to make eye contact with them when I kept looking away but I find eye contact difficult and distressing and they didn’t care and they told me to go get a job and I explained everything to them and they didn’t care and said well I’m doing my job you should make eye contact with me. No support or anything I’m going through the worst time of my life I told them I’m not coping but they won’t offer support, started raising her voice so I raised mine and burst into tears but I just gave up arguing because no one cares. For an assessment they didn’t even ask certain questions they always ask. Told me to speak to more people and get a job, all my problems have been solved, literally said I speak to friends and stuff often but as always no one gives me advice and now they are making me sit here.
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    edited November 14
    They spoke to me again I told them what I need I’m in tears rn I just want the right help pleaseeee it’s not fair I’m forced to make eye contact it literally says on my notes I can’t due to potential ASD and I said it’s uncomfortable. I have no clue why I’m here in the first place they don’t even know
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    so sry to hear that jack. what’s happening now may i ask? are you still at the crisis centre?
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    I’m still here I tried to ask where the toilet is but they won’t speak to me and signalled me to walk away I hate this so much
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    are you staying there all night? have they said anything abt what’s happening next?
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Jack25Jack25 Posts: 82 Budding Regular
    I have been discharged I'm at home now thank you @eylah , I'm safe, have a good sleep Eylah thank you so much I'm sorry I brought you along here I didn't mean to.
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    i’m always here for you @Jack25 . you’re not alone <3 if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to tag me and if i’m online i’ll reply. you matter so much jack <3 i hope you can get some well deserved rest. tmr is a new day. keep going jack <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • RedemptionRedemption Community Connector Posts: 5,995 Part of The Furniture
    I said this on the other thread and want to say here too, Im so proud of you all, it might not mean much coming from me but y'all so strong, brave and amazing. For everyone struggling, it does get better ❤️
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,065 An Original Mixlorian
    hi @Jack25 hru you doing today?
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
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