Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition) w/c 11.08

Leyla · August 11

This is a space to chat or vent about things which you think may be more triggering for the Community but still want to get off your chest.

Every Monday morning we will close the thread and start a new one so we have a fresh one each week. If you'd like to check out this week's venting thread that isn't triggering, click here.

Invisible_me · August 12

Yep, literally close the previous thread and ignore my message on there- do i even matter!?
Im struggling much

Redemption · August 12

Invisible_me wrote: »

Yep, literally close the previous thread and ignore my message on there- do i even matter!?
Im struggling much

@Invisible_me Im sorry your message was ignore, you absolutely do matter even if you don't feel like you do right now, I promise you do matter ♥️

eylah · August 12

Invisible_me wrote: »

Yep, literally close the previous thread and ignore my message on there- do i even matter!?
Im struggling much

you do matter. it wasn’t closed bc of your comment every week threads are made to keep it all together. you do matter if you want you can repeat your msg and we’ll support you.

Invisible_me · August 12

Sorry, it just feels like it. I know hew ones get created but the previous message should still be read and followed up, which was the case for someone else other time-, which is good! Byt then yeah ignore my messages because its posted Sunday night!
I'm not reposting it. Ice judt had enough, people say i matter, say they'll follow up on me do thry no! People can't even fulfil a simple thing if phoning me back checking in on me..

Redemption · August 12

Invisible_me wrote: »

Sorry, it just feels like it. I know hew ones get created but the previous message should still be read and followed up, which was the case for someone else other time-, which is good! Byt then yeah ignore my messages because its posted Sunday night!
I'm not reposting it. Ice judt had enough, people say i matter, say they'll follow up on me do thry no! People can't even fulfil a simple thing if phoning me back checking in on me..

I understand @Invisible_me Im really sorry again that happened, you definitely matter though I promise, a lot of people might not have seen it too as it was at the end, we are still here for you ❤️

Invisible_me · August 12

Unrelated but thisis an email I've had from my mentor what the hell do you ubswrstand from this.. I interpret it as encouraging me to mask and hide my feelings!

River · August 14

My collar bone is swollen

and kills like a ton

Sian321 · August 15

Hi @River , that sounds really painful! What do you feel might have triggered the swelling?

I wonder if there's anything that could help bring the inflammation down a little bit?

You're doing really well to share about this, and we're here with you. Keep us updated if you wish to!

River · August 15

@Sian321 I get it at random times since the radiculopathy in my spine 🥲 keeping an eye on the swelling and if not I’ll see a doctor next week

Sian321 · August 15

Hey @Invisible_me , thank you for sharing this.

How are you feeling about your mentor's advice there? It sounds like it feels contradictory for you, and I see what you're saying. I've read it a few times also, and it does sound like they're encouraging you to mask your feelings. What's that like for you to hear?

How do you feel about your mentor more generally?

We're here with you to explore this!

Sian321 · August 15

@River , I see what you mean. That sounds sore, and I'm sorry you're in pain right now. Possibly seeing the doctor next week if the swelling doesn't go down sounds like a really positive option. In the past when its swollen like this has there been anything that helps calm the flare up?

River · August 15

@Sian321 im taking pain meds for it at the moment

eylah · August 16

struggling a lot today it’s so shit.

Sian321 · August 16

Hey @eylah , we're here for you. What's that struggle made up of for you today?

eylah · August 16

hey @Sian321 . im missing my mum today.

just keep overthinking what if she didn’t die what would life be like rn

. im all alone in my flat crying like an idiot its so hard to go through this alone.

waiting for my bf to wake up so i can call him bc he makes me happy.

Sian321 · August 16

@eylah , thank you for sharing this, that sounds so painful, and I hear that the grief feels close today. You're feeling very alone, and racing in your mind through all the possibilities of what life might have looked like if she was still alive.

What time is your boyfriend due to wake up today? It sounds so positive that he is lovely company for you.

When you are really missing your mum, I wonder what tends to feel most comforting for you - whether that's allowing yourself to be with that grief for a little bit and to let the wave come up and rush through you?

Or maybe finding distractions to get relief from missing her feels best?

What do you tend to prefer?

We're here with you.

River · August 16

I’ve been heavily bitten by mosquitoes 😭 I’m so itchy

Invisible_me · 12:12AM

Sian321 wrote: »

Hey @Invisible_me , thank you for sharing this.

How are you feeling about your mentor's advice there? It sounds like it feels contradictory for you, and I see what you're saying. I've read it a few times also, and it does sound like they're encouraging you to mask your feelings. What's that like for you to hear?

How do you feel about your mentor more generally?

We're here with you to explore this!

Thanks for rrpky @Sian321 She was my uni mentor but still keep in touch occassionally.
Infidnt understand it, it does seem contradicting. Yep that's the interpretation I made. I emailed her back and she said im telling you to open up to the ram and by opening up your being brave and will show them more confidence but this meaning and way she worded it fobt seem to match.

Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition) w/c 11.08

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