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Always questioning my sexuality then all of the sudden…

bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 325 The Mix Regular
edited July 18 in Gender & Sexuality
As I’m scrolling through TikTok, I get a video of an artist showing her face before her artwork. And I was in absolute disbelief over how beautiful she was, I could cry 😭

More specifically, I could cry over never having a girlfriend like her because she’s literally so perfect and I live in a mostly straight area lol

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  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 2,248 Boards Champion
    edited July 19
    Thank you for sharing this, @bignosegirly0 it sounds like that moment really hit something tender in you.

    It makes so much sense to feel that deep ache not only of attraction, but also about longing, connection, and maybe even some grief (?) of not seeing what you hope for around you.

    Sometimes seeing something or someone beautiful can stir up all sorts of feelings like loneliness, desire, and even a kind of sadness that’s hard to name or put a finger on. I wonder if you relate to that? What do you think it is about her, or that moment, that hit you so hard?

    We're here to listen and explore this with you!
  • bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 325 The Mix Regular
    @Sian321 yeah I kinda relate. Obviously I’m not thinking about it now and moved on. But wow, she was honestly so stunning. I do feel guilty about my sexuality because it’s always changing. I think it’s highly influenced by my need for male approval. It gets to the point where my attraction to women doesn’t last long because I feel I need a man’s sexual attention to feel like a real woman.
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