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Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition) W/C 07.07.25

LeylaLeyla Community Manager Posts: 241 Trailblazer
edited July 8 in Health & Wellbeing
This is a space to chat or vent about things which you think may be more triggering for the Community but still want to get off your chest.

Every Monday morning we will close the thread and start a new one so we have a fresh one each week. If you'd like to check out this week's venting thread that isn't triggering, click here.
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  • RiverRiver Community Connector Posts: 4,662 The Mix Elder
    @Leyla i thought we already had one of these
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
  • LeylaLeyla Community Manager Posts: 241 Trailblazer
    Hey River, we do!

    I made a comment on each of those threads if you want to read a bit more but we're basically keeping these threads, but making a new one each week and closing the previous week ones, because it was becoming a bit hard for us to keep track of from a safety point of view as they were so long!

    So you can still see all of the comments etc made on the previous posts, but there will be a new post for each thread every Monday so it's easier for everyone to keep track of

    Hope that makes sense gang!
  • RiverRiver Community Connector Posts: 4,662 The Mix Elder
    Ah that’s great @Leyla
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
  • RiverRiver Community Connector Posts: 4,662 The Mix Elder
    Tomorrow is 3 years since my failed suicide attempt and I’m genuinely so mad at myself :(
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,479 Legendary Poster
    Lottie5433 wrote: »
    I wrote in my journal today about everything thats been happening in my head over the past few days (SH and SI (with a plan etc)) and my boyfriend wants to read it but i dont know if i can put him through that because i know he'd just worry and I cant do that. I wish I could have a whole reset on everything because ive screwed up so much in the last few weeks/months. I should punished myself for the drama ive caused

    are you feeling safe? as you mentioned a plan. i am here for you <3.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Lottie5433Lottie5433 Community Connector Posts: 880 Part of The Mix Family
    eylah wrote: »
    Lottie5433 wrote: »
    I wrote in my journal today about everything thats been happening in my head over the past few days (SH and SI (with a plan etc)) and my boyfriend wants to read it but i dont know if i can put him through that because i know he'd just worry and I cant do that. I wish I could have a whole reset on everything because ive screwed up so much in the last few weeks/months. I should punished myself for the drama ive caused

    are you feeling safe? as you mentioned a plan. i am here for you <3.

    Hi, yeah I am safe at the moment, thanks for asking ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,479 Legendary Poster
    in middle of having a nightmare. :heartbreak:
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 1,927 Extreme Poster
    @eylah , that sounds really frightening. How are you this morning? What was last night like in the end? We're here for you. Sounds like you're coping with so much right now, particularly following the news of your surgery. Sending lots of care your way, Eylah. What might looking after yourself today look like?
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 1,927 Extreme Poster
    @Lottie5433 , thank you for sharing what you have. It sounds like the last few months especially have been really overwhelming, and I hear that self-blame and regret you're feeling right now. You said you feel like you need to punish yourself. We're listening and we're all here for you.

    What has it been like to begin journalling?

    And how do you feel about your bf reading? You deserve to be able to hold boundaries over whether your journal is private or not, especially as I remember you saying that in the past you'd felt upset when your journals were read by other people.

    How are you practically keeping safe at the moment in between your work shifts?

    Popping some options below for 1:1 support if you are struggling with distressing thoughts and feelings:
    Samaritans - https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/
    Papyrus - https://www.papyrus-uk.org/
    CALM - https://www.thecalmzone.net/
    SHOUT 24/7 Text service - https://giveusashout.org/

    https://www.dareresponse.com/dareapp/ - SOS 'pep-talks' section may feel helpful for racing thoughts / panic / anxiety.

    You're doing so well to talk about this, especially when you're feeling as though you've 'screwed up'. That can take a lot of courage and feel daunting. And that part of you that's afraid you've messed things up just deserves so much space and time right now to be listened to.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,479 Legendary Poster
    Sian321 wrote: »
    @eylah , that sounds really frightening. How are you this morning? What was last night like in the end? We're here for you. Sounds like you're coping with so much right now, particularly following the news of your surgery. Sending lots of care your way, Eylah. What might looking after yourself today look like?

    im rly not doing gd today. im struggling badly :/. i just want to cry but i can’t. :/
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • RiverRiver Community Connector Posts: 4,662 The Mix Elder
    Don’t panic I’m not in danger!

    I want to sign a DNR
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
  • RiverRiver Community Connector Posts: 4,662 The Mix Elder
    There phoning my doctor 🥲 to tell them that I want to sign one because I’m sick of life which tbf dr M wouldn’t allow it anyway she sees right through me, I walk into her room and she goes “more thoughts hun”

    If I can’t end my life then why can’t I sign one, it’s not like I’ll do anything that it has to come into effect it’s just there for if natural causes happen and I get my opportunity…is it really so bad?
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 1,927 Extreme Poster
    @eylah , thank you for letting us know that you were really struggling that day. That sounds overwhelming, and I get the sense you were coping with some really strong thoughts and feelings. Would you feel comfortable sharing a bit more about what was going on for you that day? We're here and we're listening and you're doing so well to talk about this.

    How is today feeling so far?
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,479 Legendary Poster
    im rly struggling i cba :( im safe dw
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,479 Legendary Poster
    Sian321 wrote: »
    @eylah , thank you for letting us know that you were really struggling that day. That sounds overwhelming, and I get the sense you were coping with some really strong thoughts and feelings. Would you feel comfortable sharing a bit more about what was going on for you that day? We're here and we're listening and you're doing so well to talk about this.

    How is today feeling so far?

    having a bad day. well this afternoon has been shit but got my nails done earlier but im just sad rly.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • RiverRiver Community Connector Posts: 4,662 The Mix Elder
    TW// self harm
    I self harmed kinda bad and god it fucking hurts a shit ton 😭 can’t even lay down on that area so that’s bloody great

    Safe :/
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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