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I’m fucking praying that I get the new job(TW suicidal thoughts)

bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 259 The Mix Regular
in Health & Wellbeing
I’m still on a waiting list, but I kinda feel as if the NHS just gave up on me.

But I’m supposed to get a response tomorrow about whether I got an interview for an graphic design apprenticeship I’ve applied for

I’m fucking begging for the universe to let me have the job.

I’ve got nothing else to fill the lonely void within me, this is the only thing I would have to look forward to in life. I have nothing else to look forward to in life. Just please let me have this one thing. Fucking please.
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  • Claire28Claire28 Community Manager Posts: 150 Helping Hand
    Hi @bignosegirly0 thanks for sharing here. It sounds really hard to feel the NHS has given up on you. The Community are here for you.

    I'm hearing you feel like you have got nothing to look forward to in life, that sounds like a heavy thought to hold. I just wanted to check in and ask if you're safe today?

    I can really hear how important this job is to you. Wishing you all the best for tomorrow!
  • bignosegirly0bignosegirly0 Posts: 259 The Mix Regular
    @Claire28 i am safe today. But I am really fucking hoping I would get the job. I deadass have nothing to look forward to in life. And I feel like a creative apprenticeship would atleast give me some meaning in life. Not to mention I would get a decent amount of money to take care of myself when I’m older. I rather be depressed but financially stable than depressed and poor.
  • DonnerKebabDonnerKebab Posts: 156 Helping Hand
    @bignosegirly0 We're all rooting for you. I know you're current workplace is filled with assholes, you really do deserve a new good paying meaningful and fun job where they treat you right.

    And on the odd chance it doesn't work, please don't give up. There are hundreds of thousands of apprenticeships and pathways that you can still take just in case. You honestly deserve a good workplace, with co-workers who treat you kindly, and we're wishing you the best friend. And as for the NHS, they are slow, but you are on the waiting list now and day by day, you'll get closer to being seen. You honestly deserve all the support and help in the world right now and it's sad that the system is too broken to give you it at the minute, but they will get around to you soon.
  • RedemptionRedemption Community Connector Posts: 4,175 Community Veteran
    I really hope you get the job
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,981 Extreme Poster
    also fingers crossed you get the job @bignosegirly0 - it sounds like something that could give you a new creative avenue to explore whilst also being a bit of a boost to your mental health. :3

    sending a big hug today and hope you're doing okay
  • MorgsSmiles24 MorgsSmiles24 Posts: 86 Budding Regular
    I hope you're okay @bignosegirly0! Hopefully everything goes well regarding the job.
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