I’m a horrible and awful person

This is the last time I’ll send you a message like this because I’m to tired of trying to save this friendship. Time and time again I’ve tried to stay and not leave because all you do is say people leave and whilst yes people leave but some people leave for good reasons to protect themselves or they get pushed away and your doing a brilliant job at making me not want to stay in this friendship.

You asked me what you have done wrong and whilst I cannot understand why you can’t see what you’ve done wrong over and over I’m a big enough person to communicate so let me tell you.

Your hurting me over and over and you make it impossible for anyone to have a voice and feelings, I’m to busy protecting you because you get upset when others have feelings and you go and tell others about it and send them screenshots but I’m done caring.

I set boundaries and you ignore them ALL the time acting like I’m not human. You set the same boundaries but that’s okay but you expect me to follow them and get upset when I don’t.

You say I don’t listen but you HAVE never listened to me, you walk all over me and ignore anything I do and say. If I say I’m struggling that means nothing to you because everything seems to always be about you. You vent to me everyday and every second of the day which is draining.

You’re constantly bossing me around and you act like I’m a dog, I don’t have to follow your orders. I’ve already walked away from this friendship once and whilst I’m trying to stay your making it very hard to.

I am human, I have feelings, I have mental health problems, I’m not your dummy to walk all over and I’m not your therapist. Treat me like a human, respect me like I’ve always respected you because you are really hurting me. One day I will walk away and I won’t come back.

You say you have autism and you might very well have it and if so that is okay but you forget that I am not stupid! You act dumb and idk why you do that and you don’t show your true self.

I am not your mum so stop pinning those responsibilities on me because that isn’t fair, start being responsible for your own life and act your age. You don’t need my permission for everything and if that carries on I will ignore you because that’s not a nice thing you have been placing on me. The only time I actually want to know what your doing is when your taking painkillers because your so reckless with them but you don’t need to ask me to go toilet, to leave life 360 with kiara, you don’t need permission for everything!!

I’m trying my fucking hardest with this friendship but it’s draining me. Yea I act okay because you are always struggling so I’m expected to be okay because you constantly vent to me. I’ve set this boundary multiple times and I’ve offered to find you help irl but you don’t listen and you don’t put the effort in, anything I suggest you always have a reason on why you can’t do it

The more you let your mental health bring you down because you don’t want to reach out to professionals it will lead to you dragging everyone else down with you!

Start thinking about others because you will loose everyone and then you’ll be alone. Professional are there for a reason and idk how many times I have to tell you but i am NOT and professional. Get that in your head and start making good choices.

This is your last chance before I walk away just like kiara has.