CEDT assessment 😬

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• shannon_164 Community Connector Posts: 1,593 Extreme Poster

  9:10AM

  hey @Lottie5433 🙂
  
  i really am so so proud of you for even getting to this point, it takes so much strength just to show up for something like this, even when you’re bricking it. it totally makes sense that you’re feeling overwhelmed, especially with how little sleep you’ve had and all the uncertainty around the assessment. not knowing what to expect can make anxiety spiral, and you’ve been carrying a lot already!
  
  please don’t be too hard on yourself for feeling this way. you are not at all weak for being scared, you’re actually really brave for considering going through with it even with all this going on.
  
  is there any way you can message your gm again just to check in about using the leisure complex? and if it isn’t possible, do you have any alternative places to use?
  
  please don’t cancel because of panic though - the assessment is there to help you, and even if it feels intense, it could be a step toward things getting a little easier down the line. you deserve support and you deserve to be heard!
  
  you’ve got this, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now

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• Lottie5433 Posts: 743 Part of The Mix Family

  9:27AM

  Thank you @shannon_164 I appreciate you taking the time to read and respond ❤️
  
  I just keep going into a spiral and into a state of panic about it. Like every time my phone get a notification I'm scared to look at it, or when the phone rings just incase it's them moving the assessment forwards or better cancelling it.
  
  My GM phoned me today to ask where a key was for the leisure complex but I don't think I could go there now because we are having something fix - steam room tiles? I'm not sure. So it will be awkward if builders are walking in and out.
  The only other place is my brothers room as he's at school or going to work and potentially doing it upstairs in the cafe (we don't use that and only staff are allowed)
  
  Thank you again

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• Invisible_me Posts: 325 The Mix Regular

  9:51AM

  Hi @Lottie5433
  
  Your showing immense strength and I hope this goes well for you. I can hear how scared yiu are feeling anoit this and how drained it's made you feel.
  Remember in a way with it being virtual uoy in control, you can use fidgets to help you manage emotions and cam step away easier than face to face. Also you cannot see them.as such so that can sometimes make it easier.

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• Lottie5433 Posts: 743 Part of The Mix Family

  11:02AM

  Hi @Invisible_me
  Thank you for the message I appreciate it ❤️
  I did have my fidgets with me which helped a little bit.

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• Lottie5433 Posts: 743 Part of The Mix Family

  11:03AM

  I'll update this post later on, just need some time to figure out and put together what's been said but also wait for a call back later on

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• Lottie5433 Posts: 743 Part of The Mix Family

  7:40PM

  So a little update. I had my CEDT assessment with a dbt therapist who has previously had work with eating disorders. This lasted about an hour and was quite alot to take in but also took alot to talk about
  
  TW mention of self harm and suicide
  
  During the assessment we spoke about various things, like the guy had read my notes and my file on everything thats happened. To begin he just wanted to know about my situation of like who I live with and how I get on with them.
  I said about how I get on with my brother coz he doesnt understand anything, i don't get on with my sisters because they use my mental health against me, and my parents are too helicoptery. We went on to discuss the helicoptering of my parents.
  
  He asked if leading up to the appointment if I experienced anxiety and out of 100 what would I rate it. Moving on he asked about my suicidal thoughts and when my last attempt was

  he had down it was august/september last year. I went on to say about one in june and that one are the ones people know about but more have happened that they dont know about. To which he asked when my latest one was: thinking it wouldnt be too recent, I followed with last month roughly (he seemed shocked by it in a way)

  we didnt go into too much detail about what happened in the lead up, but did ask about my methods of doing this as there is a specific method mentioned in my record. After that he asked about my self harm and when the last time i did it was

  the nurse i saw made a note of it in my record that I had fresh/new cuts on my upper arm

  i confirmed that was the last time, which followed with how I usually do it and the location I do it on typically.
  
  After all this i started to withdraw and was more restless and fidgety- more distracted I would say.
  
  We also looked at and discussed relationships and he mentioned how trust seems to be a big part on me forming and maintaining relationships. I mentioned how it takes alot to open up to others and trust people with things that are happening with me. Due to this trust issue I never learnt to properly regulate my emotions because they were never validated. He asked how I dealt with emotions and I said i supress and bottle them up which is exhausting. I was asked if I remember how I dealt with or what emotions I had in childhood (I can't remember just what other said - me being bubbly, happy and smiley).
  
  Then comes the treatment options - both im not too keen on but i spoke about that anyways.
  So i can either have DBT where it's on a 24 week rolling schedule of emotional regulation, mindfulness, some other stuff but I can't remember just that there's alot of 2 week mindfulness blocks. With this its would have an hours sessionn with a therapist individually and a 2 hour online group session weekly as well.
  If i miss 4 group session or 4 individual session theb treatment stops.
  Then the other is CAT - not much was spoken about that but it would look at my relationships
  
  So after I had my assessment the therpaist took my case to their MDT meeting to see what they could offer me.
  At about 3:20pm I received a call from them therapist with the decided outcome of the assessment.
  
  So i have been but on their DBT waitlist which is 6months to a year long. Because their is an extensive waitlist he mentioned how I will receive wellbeing calls about every 6 weeks or so just to see how things are.
  It was mentioned how yes the waitlist is close to a year long there could be a chance to be seen earlier around 6 months. But not to get hopes up just to think about the waitlist being a year long
  
  Do yeah that's that.
  
  Despite this I still contacted SHOUT at about 4pm who were no help so yeah waiting a year will be fun

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