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ADHD Medication - Thinking about going on them again
Amy22
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So a while ago back when I was younger, when I was diagnosed at the age of six for autism and ADHD I was put onto ADHD medication to help me relax as I tended to be a very hyperactive. However, because I was a child at the time and I had to be regularly monitored via my blood pressure and having it checked constantly, my parents thought that the medication wasn't helping me. In fact in some ways I would call them 'personality strippers' because they removed my personality and the nature of myself as a whole. I guess they didnt agree with me at the time because I had issues with eating and I woulden't eat enough food to the point I had to take iron supplement gummies which are for children. Eventually I was taken off these and have been doing okay with them until recently I had a mental breakdown kind of thing in college during my art course, (I got better during my media course the year after) and I was put onto anti-depressents (fluoxetine) for my OCD symptoms that I displayed. I should have mentioned I did get diagnosed with OCD as a kid when I was younger but I dont think it was as prominant as it was now im an adult.
As of lately, I have been noticing that I am more hyper and tend to be very impulsive and I can act out before thinking which can be not a good idea in general because I know it will make me feel bad in the end. I find it much harder to concentrate on things especially small tasks such as reading which I used to love doing but I can't properly read a chapter and I hate it so much. I don't know if its because im on my technology more than reading but there's something I want to discuss with my GP when I have my medication review. Another thing I noticed is my self destructive behaviour has increased a lot recently and that worries me because I don't want to be self destructive anymore, im tired of it. I've been thinking about going back on ADHD medication now im an adult as I think it won't be as bad as to how it affected me when I was much younger. But I still got that doubt in the back of my head that says what if it disagrees with you again but makes you worse and could potentially sent you backwards a few step of your journey to recovery. I don't know if anyone reading has experienced this or does take ADHD medication but I thank you for reading this as I really appreciate it
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As of lately, I have been noticing that I am more hyper and tend to be very impulsive and I can act out before thinking which can be not a good idea in general because I know it will make me feel bad in the end. I find it much harder to concentrate on things especially small tasks such as reading which I used to love doing but I can't properly read a chapter and I hate it so much. I don't know if its because im on my technology more than reading but there's something I want to discuss with my GP when I have my medication review. Another thing I noticed is my self destructive behaviour has increased a lot recently and that worries me because I don't want to be self destructive anymore, im tired of it. I've been thinking about going back on ADHD medication now im an adult as I think it won't be as bad as to how it affected me when I was much younger. But I still got that doubt in the back of my head that says what if it disagrees with you again but makes you worse and could potentially sent you backwards a few step of your journey to recovery. I don't know if anyone reading has experienced this or does take ADHD medication but I thank you for reading this as I really appreciate it
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Maybe it’d be worth discussing it all with a doctor / psychiatrist?
I would like to echo what Toe said, it sounds like something which could be discussed with a professional and could potentially make a plan that works for you to manage any side effects you might be worried about!
You're doing great to be so self aware of the things you're doing and feeling and that you feel this impulsivity isn't something you want to be feeling and you want to try to make changes where you can. Could you expand a bit on what you mean by self-destructive behaviours and how you have noticed them increasing?
Thank you for sharing, you're so incredibly valid and getting medication that works for you is an everchanging journey sometimes so I hope you can work with a professional to find what is suitable for the Amy of right now!