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TW// Relapse (SH)

Rose113Rose113 Community Connector Posts: 3,215 Boards Guru
in Health & Wellbeing
I relapsed…again and I know the port of call is to tell Janis to get first aid at college but the thought of it fills me with dread imagine when she asks why I did it and I just say over a fucking stupid letter…I’m gonna come across so pathetic ffs
Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.

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  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 243 Trailblazer
    You are not pathetic, anything can trigger trauma rose and just because it may sound silly to them it's not just a letter to you. That letter reminds you of the relationship with your mam, the trust she broke and they are valid reasons to be upset, hurt or even betrayed. Then about the SH, remember what I always tell you, a relapse isn't a fail it's just a set back and they happen in recovery especially when something like that happens. You're trying and that shows strength. Stay strong lovely ❤️
  • shannon_164shannon_164 Community Connector Posts: 1,592 Extreme Poster
    hey @Rose113 🙂

    i’m really sorry you’re going through this. you are not pathetic at all, please don’t be so hard on yourself. relapses happen, especially when you’re overwhelmed, and whatever triggered it (even if it feels “small” to you) clearly meant something. pain is still pain, no matter what caused it.

    i know talking to janis might feel terrifying, but she’s there to help, not to judge. you don’t owe anyone a perfect explanation, just honesty and care for yourself. if a letter hurt you, then it hurt you. that matters, and you matter, even when it doesn’t feel that way.

    sending you so much love <3

  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,935 Extreme Poster
    also wanted to hop on and send you the biggest of hugs right now. like the others have said, anything can be a trigger for a relapse - no matter how big or small it may appear to other people. if it's affected you then it's valid and it doesn't make you pathetic in the slightest.

    you've probably heard this be said before, but recovery is never a simple straight line. set backs happen and it is all part of the journey. what matters is how you pick yourself back up and try again. we are all super proud of you for your recovery journey.
  • LeylaLeyla Community Manager Posts: 111 The Mix Convert
    @Rose113 Here to echo what everyone else has been saying, any trigger is a valid trigger and trauma can be such a confusing thing to navigate, no-one has the right to judge how you end up responding to certain situations!

    To check in this morning, how are you feeling about everything after a day has passed? Did you get the first aid support you needed at college from Janis?

    The community is here for you, you're doing great to keep going
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Connector Posts: 3,215 Boards Guru
    @Leyla im currently sat with Emma 🫠 Janis wasn’t in but Emma looked at them and said there okay
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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