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Anxiety over something stupid
Rose113
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Idk if this is the right place but yeah I’m sorry if it’s not
So basically I started the publishing a book process on the 20th February and I was so excited for it and [cringe warning!!] to have my literal dream come true especially because my career is to be an author.
So then 24th march we hit a stand still because I needed ID to verify my author account so I submitted for that and then it was a waiting game
The update:
I got the finished front and back cover for my book last night and it looks sooooo good hehe
(I will have to ask the staff if I can post a picture before I do
)
So I get my new passport today so then that will get the author account approved tonight and then I’ll send the log in and stuff to the publisher and they will upload my book
Important part:
I am absolutely petrified and like I’m also so excited too but shit scared especially because it’s a dark book about my personal experiences from a young age to present and my mum has told so many people and I really don’t want people to be think differently of me like I know I’m still me but they’ll see the dark side of my past too which makes me feel very vulnerable
When it comes out my mum has said she’s putting it on facebook but I’ve said she can NOT let my sisters mum see or my birth mum see it so when she uploads that to facebook I think I’ll make sure I’m with her so she only assigns it to her friends that I trust
So basically I started the publishing a book process on the 20th February and I was so excited for it and [cringe warning!!] to have my literal dream come true especially because my career is to be an author.
So then 24th march we hit a stand still because I needed ID to verify my author account so I submitted for that and then it was a waiting game
The update:
I got the finished front and back cover for my book last night and it looks sooooo good hehe
(I will have to ask the staff if I can post a picture before I do
)So I get my new passport today so then that will get the author account approved tonight and then I’ll send the log in and stuff to the publisher and they will upload my book
Important part:
I am absolutely petrified and like I’m also so excited too but shit scared especially because it’s a dark book about my personal experiences from a young age to present and my mum has told so many people and I really don’t want people to be think differently of me like I know I’m still me but they’ll see the dark side of my past too which makes me feel very vulnerable
When it comes out my mum has said she’s putting it on facebook but I’ve said she can NOT let my sisters mum see or my birth mum see it so when she uploads that to facebook I think I’ll make sure I’m with her so she only assigns it to her friends that I trust
Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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I think its completely understandable to feel nervous about this whole thing. It’s a big thing to have a book release to start with, and then adding in the fact its about your own personal experiences – I completely get why you’d feel anxious.
You’re perfectly okay to ask that of your mum, to only keep her sharing it to people you feel comfortable with. It’s a very personal project from what it sounds like, and youre more than entitled to protect your own mind and wellbeing by asking that of her.
Whilst easier said than done, try and focus on the positives – you’re publishing a book!!!!!!! How many people can say they’ve done that.
Sending you a big hug
Yeah I’m trying to look at the positives but when something good is happening to me my brain immediately shuts it down to darkness welp 🫠