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TW: I'm nervous as this is my first post since been back but I've always been 100% honest&open here

Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 238 Trailblazer
edited April 6 in Health & Wellbeing
TW: self-harm

I don't know how to feel right now I should be happy but I'm not. I have an alright family, not super close but enough. Amazing friends I love to peices and a very sweet and supportive boyfriend witch happened during my break but I still can't get away from my head and everything. I over think everything, my friends and boyfriend make me feel so loved but I still never feel good enough and my disorder and SH are more often. I don't understand. I should be in the best place I have been in years but in a way I'm at the worst and I don't understand how or why
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  • Rose113Rose113 Community Connector Posts: 3,181 Boards Guru
    Hey @Lucy_21 its okay for things to be going well and not to know why we still feel not okay and sometimes that means that maybe it’s something much more deep hidden away like trauma that can be a cause for still struggling but to have things going well. It may not be about the present stuff but more the past stuff and that’s okay it’s about maybe figuring out what might be causing it which is completely your choice to do if and when your ready <3

    Your always welcome to message me whenever you need 💕
    Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 238 Trailblazer
    Thanks @Rose113 love, you always manage to make me smile when I need it. Maybe you're right, I've never actually sorted any of my issues really just tried to forget about them but I don't know where to start with them ❤️
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 902 Part of The Mix Family
    Hey @Lucy_21 , how are you today? Firstly - welcome back. It's lovely to have you here.

    I hear just how confusing it feels right now to be looking around at your life and the people in it and feeling so grateful and loved, and yet, at the same time, on the inside there is still a struggle going on. That sounds really hard, Lucy, and so valid too because mental health struggles can happen at any time in our life, regardless of our circumstances, and as Rose has mentioned, it might be the case that you're coping with feelings that are deeper under the surface.

    You mentioned that you have never sorted your issues, but you don't know where to begin and I hear you. That sounds overwhelming, and even just naming this and saying it here feels like such a positive step. You're paying attention to yourself with curiosity, and that is really powerful. If you felt safe to share, what do you feel like you might need as you begin to process some of these issues? What kind of support might you want by your side?

    Here at The Mix, something else we can do is to take a look for options of further support also, including other services that offer 1:1 emotional support, places that provide counselling, or practical advice. If this would feel helpful at all, please don't hesitate to DM the staff team and we can take a look for you.

    In the meantime, I will share below some resources around self-harm too:
    There are some websites you may like to look at to support you around self-harming. They are:
    https://www.nshn.co.uk/
    https://www.recoveryourlife.com/
    https://www.selfharm.co.uk/
    https://harmless.org.uk/

    You can also check out our articles on our website: https://www.themix.org.uk/search/self+harm

    If you ever wished to share more about those fears of not being good enough too, Lucy, we're here to listen entirely without judgement. That sounds really hard and vulnerable too. And you're doing so well to be talking about this and putting words to the feelings.
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