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shannon_164
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sooo basically i started my job a few weeks ago - i worked in the airport for about 3 years altogether then left and now i have returned again to a very similar role to my previous role, just with a different company however i still work alongside previous colleagues - i was expecting to enjoy it as i loved the job before, just the company was awful to work for but im really not enjoying it. the first number of shifts i had mixed feelings but by the end of the shift, i was thinking maybe i do enjoy it here, but the reality is very much the case that i don’t enjoy it.
i want to leave and find a job elsewhere, preferably something that can count as placement for college too as we have to do a placement next year so i don’t want to be at college 3-4 days a week, working 4 days a week (if im at my current job) and then also doing a placement, and additionally, i have a few volunteer roles.
my dream is definitely youth work - i have thought about other things such as social work and psychology, but i always always always go back to youth work in the end. my plan for after college is to do the level 4 course they offer in social and community youth work, so as i can confirm i suppose if it’s definitely what i want to do? then potentially go to uni and study community youth work.
today is our final session of the youth work qualification i’ve been completing over the past few months - it’s so surreal because the youth worker that takes it is the youth worker who basically saved me, so learning from her is just such a wow moment! though i’ll now have the minimum qualification needed to get into youth work roles in northern ireland.
yesterday with my employment support officer, we had a look at some youth work jobs and we found a few that i’m going to apply for and then today i also have a jobs fair im going to so im feeling hopeful about that as there’s lots of youth organisations at it, so that’s a positive!
i guess the point of me even posting this is just to get it of my chest? i’ve just been (over)thinking about the fact i’ve only been in my current job for a few months and now i’m already looking elsewhere - i won’t lie, at the training i was scrolling through indeed on our breaks lol - but i don’t know, it feels really soon? however, if i want to complete my second year of college then i NEED a job elsewhere as they don’t take education into consideration at all so its just a case of me swapping shifts when needed, and we’re limited to 2 swaps per month so if im in college 4 days per week for second year, that is a potential of 16 swaps i could be needing then which wont be allowed, and i am not going to miss college for a course that i actually want to do and will benefit me more, for a job in the airport that i don’t enjoy and isn’t going to get me anywhere in the long run really, as i don’t want to stay in the airport.
thank you for reading
sooo basically i started my job a few weeks ago - i worked in the airport for about 3 years altogether then left and now i have returned again to a very similar role to my previous role, just with a different company however i still work alongside previous colleagues - i was expecting to enjoy it as i loved the job before, just the company was awful to work for but im really not enjoying it. the first number of shifts i had mixed feelings but by the end of the shift, i was thinking maybe i do enjoy it here, but the reality is very much the case that i don’t enjoy it.
i want to leave and find a job elsewhere, preferably something that can count as placement for college too as we have to do a placement next year so i don’t want to be at college 3-4 days a week, working 4 days a week (if im at my current job) and then also doing a placement, and additionally, i have a few volunteer roles.
my dream is definitely youth work - i have thought about other things such as social work and psychology, but i always always always go back to youth work in the end. my plan for after college is to do the level 4 course they offer in social and community youth work, so as i can confirm i suppose if it’s definitely what i want to do? then potentially go to uni and study community youth work.
today is our final session of the youth work qualification i’ve been completing over the past few months - it’s so surreal because the youth worker that takes it is the youth worker who basically saved me, so learning from her is just such a wow moment! though i’ll now have the minimum qualification needed to get into youth work roles in northern ireland.
yesterday with my employment support officer, we had a look at some youth work jobs and we found a few that i’m going to apply for and then today i also have a jobs fair im going to so im feeling hopeful about that as there’s lots of youth organisations at it, so that’s a positive!
i guess the point of me even posting this is just to get it of my chest? i’ve just been (over)thinking about the fact i’ve only been in my current job for a few months and now i’m already looking elsewhere - i won’t lie, at the training i was scrolling through indeed on our breaks lol - but i don’t know, it feels really soon? however, if i want to complete my second year of college then i NEED a job elsewhere as they don’t take education into consideration at all so its just a case of me swapping shifts when needed, and we’re limited to 2 swaps per month so if im in college 4 days per week for second year, that is a potential of 16 swaps i could be needing then which wont be allowed, and i am not going to miss college for a course that i actually want to do and will benefit me more, for a job in the airport that i don’t enjoy and isn’t going to get me anywhere in the long run really, as i don’t want to stay in the airport.
thank you for reading
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i went to the jobs fair, it was quite simply a waste of my time lol they had it advertised as “over 300 paid roles available” yet everywhere had the same response of “unfortunately we are only recruiting volunteers at this time” and i was like aghhhhh haha only because i already have a few voluntary roles, college & 2 jobs so i literally don’t have the time in my week for anymore voluntary roles, as much as i would love to be able to, i just can’t!!
i did end up applying for a job i seen on indeed this morning though and when i was sat in work i then got an email about booking an interview for it so that’s exciting, however im not actually sure if the job would be right for me? i have found 2 jobs that would be the absolute dream for me right now in terms of what i want to do long term so ive applied for them both too so hopefully i hear back from them soon.
i’m just sooo anxious about interviews though as in that moment i feel so overwhelmed so then it’s kinda like i look like i can’t cope with conversations or something so i would be useless at the job when in reality, i am actually not like that, it’s just the pressure of the interview, so realistically, ill probably screw up the interviews for these jobs:/
Oh gosh, there is so much that you've written here that feels exciting!! Securing that interview (congratulations!), completing the final session ever of your current level youth work qualification!!!, and then finding multiple job roles with your employment support officer too that you might wish to apply for. It feels like you've been doing a huge amount of thinking and exploring these last few weeks, Shannon, and really asking yourself, 'what am I passionate about?', 'what do I really want for my future?'. It feels like a real honour to be able to be here alongside you in this, and please know that each of us are rooting for you every step of the way
At the same time, I'm also hearing you say that there are mixed feelings too - because a part of you worries perhaps whether it might be too soon to leave your job at the aiport, and also, it sounds really hard to have hoped you would really enjoy the new role, but to find out that in actuality its not fulfilling or making you happy. It can take a huge amount of courage to dare to change directions, and if this timing feels right for you, then that sounds really valid, Shannon. What do you imagine it would feel like to leave your airport role?
Something else I'm hearing is that you really want to be mindful of your upcoming sheduele with college too, and it sounds self-caring to be beginning to think about how you can secure a placement that means you don't have to be working 4 days and doing college, to try and give yourself a little bit more breathing room. It really does feel like you've had to juggle so much recently, Shannon, and you deserve space and time to properly rest and recouperate.
Thank you for sharing this too, and that is so valid. Interviews can be really scary sometimes because as you said, they can come with this sense of real pressure and feeling put 'on-the-spot'. It sounds really positive that you're able to remind yourself of your stregnths, and how in other situations conversation does feel more comfortable. What do you imagine you might need to help you feel as confident and supported as possible heading into an interview? I also want to acknowledge that I heard you when you said you're not too sure if this specific role is something you'd want to pursue, and that is also totally okay. Whether you do or do not attend the interview, the decision is entirely yours, and we support you wholeheartedly. You deserve to be able to listen to what feels right for you.
Sending lots of care Shannon, and keep us updated however you wish!