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C-ptsd
Rose113
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So after the session with my psychologist he confirmed and officially put on my records as have C-PTSD he told me to look into it and make a note of what parts of it resonates with me and I’ve started that and a lot of stuff I resonate with and I know it’s good that I know why I am like this and that I guess I’m not fully broken now however why can’t I fully come to terms with it? Why do something happen and I’m like “shit that’s the C-ptsd” 
why is it hard
why is it hard Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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that’s a big step, and i’m really glad you have some clarity on what you’re going through. i think it makes complete sense that coming to terms with it is difficult, just knowing the reason behind things doesn’t automatically make them easier to process. c-ptsd affects so much of how you think, feel, and react, so recognising it in real time can feel strange or even frustrating, but that awareness is actually a huge part of healing.
you are not broken at all, this is just a part of your experience, and over time, understanding it might help you feel more in control. be patient with yourself! it’s ok that it’s hard - we are always here for you