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shannonxg_
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this is super silly but today i went into college and sat down n was taking my stuff out of my bag when the curriculum area manager came in and said my class tutor won’t be in today. i kinda panicked at that point. he then said how if i go to room 6 then join one of the other classes, the other classes have much higher attendance than my class so i knew it was going to be a lot more people as we see 8 people in one class if we’re lucky - she has over 20 in today alone.
i walked round the corridor a bit more and really started panicking, that tutor then was coming down to her class and asked me was i meant to be with her then and i said yes but explained how anxious i was feeling about new people. she then was so so supportive about it and asked me about if i wanted to sit near the door so i can leave if i need to, she then said she’ll go in and move a desk over to nearer the door for me and then come back out and if i feel able to come in then i can. i felt so annoying for this:/
i then did go in, it took SO much as it was a class of strangers minus one person from my class (only 2 of us came in today lol) and there’s also so many people. im proud of me for managing to do this even tho its super silly.
this class tutor has been so much better though teaching wise too, i’ve learnt more in the last hour than ive learnt since september with my actual class tutor so far lol and ive also been able to ask her about other units n stuff too - she’s been so helpful!!
im just really anxious though as she said how after lunch she’s planning on doing some revision games - it’s so silly but im really panicking about that. i think im gonna just tell her that i dont want to be here for that, i would rather go and work on my stuff in the library as its gonna be unhelpful for me because ill be stressing so much. i dont think it will be a problem to be honest, i stayed for half of the day at least that way and going to the library is going to benefit me more as im not gonna be super anxious about being in this class etc.
im a bit anxious about next week now as its unlikely my class tutor will be in for our class and the class we joined today are on study leave so im scared we’ll then maybe be put into the other class which i dont want to happen:/
this is literally so so silly but im still like shaking rn after being in this class for nearly 2 hours i just cannot relax at all for some reason:(
i walked round the corridor a bit more and really started panicking, that tutor then was coming down to her class and asked me was i meant to be with her then and i said yes but explained how anxious i was feeling about new people. she then was so so supportive about it and asked me about if i wanted to sit near the door so i can leave if i need to, she then said she’ll go in and move a desk over to nearer the door for me and then come back out and if i feel able to come in then i can. i felt so annoying for this:/
i then did go in, it took SO much as it was a class of strangers minus one person from my class (only 2 of us came in today lol) and there’s also so many people. im proud of me for managing to do this even tho its super silly.
this class tutor has been so much better though teaching wise too, i’ve learnt more in the last hour than ive learnt since september with my actual class tutor so far lol and ive also been able to ask her about other units n stuff too - she’s been so helpful!!
im just really anxious though as she said how after lunch she’s planning on doing some revision games - it’s so silly but im really panicking about that. i think im gonna just tell her that i dont want to be here for that, i would rather go and work on my stuff in the library as its gonna be unhelpful for me because ill be stressing so much. i dont think it will be a problem to be honest, i stayed for half of the day at least that way and going to the library is going to benefit me more as im not gonna be super anxious about being in this class etc.
im a bit anxious about next week now as its unlikely my class tutor will be in for our class and the class we joined today are on study leave so im scared we’ll then maybe be put into the other class which i dont want to happen:/
this is literally so so silly but im still like shaking rn after being in this class for nearly 2 hours i just cannot relax at all for some reason:(
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after we done revision on the theorists we went through some past paper questions - i feel sm more confident for my exam now from one class with her wow - but i even started openly answering questions in class which i don’t even do in my own class so im super proud of me right now ahh!!