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Heyy
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Heyy Im new.
IVE JUST JOINED.
Im 22.
MY NAME IS STACEY
I have postpartum pyschosis and bipolar.
THEY PUT ME AT HIGH RISK OF PP BECAUSE I HAVE BIPOLAR.
I was in hospital but I cant remember (becsuse I dont want to remember it)
I WAS DISCHARGED BECAUSE I WAS SHOWING STABLE.
Ive been out for 6weeks.
BUT I THINK I AM DEVELOPING IT AGAIN.
The spirits tell me not to tell them. So i come on here annoymously?
I DONT TAKE MY MEDICATION BECASUSE THE SPIRITS TELL ME NOT TO.
I have thoughts of harming my daughter.
TAKING HER TO VIEW THE WORLD.
IVE JUST JOINED.
Im 22.
MY NAME IS STACEY
I have postpartum pyschosis and bipolar.
THEY PUT ME AT HIGH RISK OF PP BECAUSE I HAVE BIPOLAR.
I was in hospital but I cant remember (becsuse I dont want to remember it)
I WAS DISCHARGED BECAUSE I WAS SHOWING STABLE.
Ive been out for 6weeks.
BUT I THINK I AM DEVELOPING IT AGAIN.
The spirits tell me not to tell them. So i come on here annoymously?
I DONT TAKE MY MEDICATION BECASUSE THE SPIRITS TELL ME NOT TO.
I have thoughts of harming my daughter.
TAKING HER TO VIEW THE WORLD.
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Welcome to the boards here at The Mix. Thanks for posting this thread, lovely to have you here! Thanks for sharing this about yourself. It sounds like you're concerned at the moment, could you tell us a bit more about why you think you're developing this again?
Sounds like it's been a difficult time for you recently, you're doing really well to talk about it here, you mentioned you have thoughts of harming your daughter, what thoughts have you been having and what do you mean when you say 'taking her to view the world'?
We have an article here which might be useful to have a look at which has links to other organisations which might be useful to have a look at as well as a video about psychosis.
Let us know how you're doing at the moment, we're here to try and support you.
(I've also moved your post from the start here section to the health and well being section as you might get more replies here)
THANKYOU.
Well I remember the symptoms and I'm well enough at the moment to recognise that.
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S POSSIBLE TO DEVELOP IT AGAIN THOUGH..
They don't really like me talking about it.
TO HARM HER
We like standing on top of a carpark, we feel safe there.
I'M NOT REALLY SURE,
My eyes, objects, words and reflections scare me
TOO FAST OR TOO SLOW. NON MOVING
Welcome to themix. How are you feeling today? Have you spoke to anyone about all these feelings and does anyone else help take care of your child?
Louisa x
I just stay in my wardrobe most of the day and have my daughter in my room.
I GOT SO ANGRY THE OTHER DAY I SCRAPED MY SCALPEL WHAT I SELF HARM WITH ACROSS MY WALL
It was like I was being took over by something..
THANKYOU
They know but I don't want to go back into hospital as it was really traumatic last time.
I DON'T LET ANYONE TAKE CARE OF MY DAUGHTER
That sounds really difficult for you to be going through, you're doing really well to write down here whats been going on and how you're feeling.
You mentioned you got so angry the other day that you scraped your scalpel you use to self harm with across the wall and it felt like you were being took over by something. Sounds very hard to deal with, you're doing so well to talk about it here. What was it that made you get so angry the other day and has this happened before?
There's an article on The Mix website about dealing with anger which might be helpful to have a read of too.
That sounds really hard that you don't want to go back into hospital, what was traumatic about when you were in hospital last time?
Welcome to the The Mix discussion boards; it is always great to see new people joining - i will be around on the discussion boards and in live chats so see you round.
We are a friendly bunch here who look out and support each other so feel to worried about getting stuck straight in.*hug*
Jessica
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
I don't really know. It's happened before, yes.
I didn't voluntary go Into hospital so they forced in there. Restrained me and left marks. It's not something I want to think about or happen again.
feel free to talk about it more if and when you feel ready.
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
Keep talking if it helps, we're all here to support you *hug*
Do you think this could perhaps be withdrawal symptoms, after having been in the hospital for a little while?x
I sit in my wardrobe most of the time.
I REALLY NEED TO CUT AGAIN
Holding a knife over me. Not to tell anyone.
it sounds like these voices hold quite a lot of power at the moment. How are you feeling this evening?
I just wondered how it might feel to stand up to the voices? Is this something you've tried before? What might you say to them? How might you tell them they're wrong?
I also wondered if you have any distraction techniques, you say you sit in your wardrobe most of the time which to some extent may help you feel safe - yet perhaps longer term may leave you feeling scared and isolated.
You mention you find it hard to trust links - one thing to remember is that the links we posted are from carefully selected sources so if you feel you can manage it, do take a look at some coping tips here: http://www.hearing-voices.org/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/Hearing_Voices_Coping_Strategies_web.pdf
Take care and remember you can come here any time day or night. There may not always be someone here to reply, but this is a safe space for you to get things off your chest.
Sounds really difficult for you to try and deal with. Is this the voices that you're talking about that are telling you these things? What did you think of what Helen mentioned in her post about standing up to the voices and what you might say to them, is this something you've tried before?
You're doing really well to talk about how what's been going on here, feel free to talk more about what's going on and we, the community will do our best to offer our support to you. *hug*
Have you received any support before with the voices? There's an organisation called Hearing Voices Network, Intervoice and the Voice Collective which might be useful to look at. We're all here to listen if you'd be comfortable to share more about what's going on and how you're feeling, you're doing really well. *hug*
I've been hearing her for a long time.
I DID HAVE SUPPORT FROM VOICE COLLECTIVE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.
She keeps telling me I'm too fat, too fat, I need to die.
I'LL LOOK AT THE OTHER ORGANISATIONS THANKYOU.