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Trapped and Alone
Jacob101
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I dont even know why im writing here but i need to get this all out - i am so upset and feeling so low right now, i feel trapped and that i can't be the real me - im still hiding everything from my parents in fear of upsetting them which i really dont want to do. I just want everyone else to be happy but pretending and acting is making me slowly fall apart - i feel trapped within myself and like i can't be me.
Sorry in advance to whoever reads this - im sorry for wasting your time
Sorry in advance to whoever reads this - im sorry for wasting your time
''You were in the wilderness
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
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It sounds like your having a really tough time right now. I'm so glad you posted on here tonight though! And you arn't wasting anyone's time either. What are you doing differently that isn't being your real self? Are you afraid of what people might think or say? Dealing with parents is often a tough situation but i would say that they love and care about you and would want to know what is going on with your health they brought you on this planet to love, look after and care for you. You need to take care of yourself sometimes and make sure you are happy.
Here are a few links to places where you can talk (though im sure you know all of them allready)
Samaritans: http://www.samaritans.org/
7cups:http: //www.7cups.com/
childline:http: //www.childline.org.uk/Pages/Home.aspx
get connected: http://www.getconnected.org.uk/?gclid=CPjm9vWElMwCFcE_Gwod1zYH_A
group chat: http://www.thesite.org/chat/live-chat
Take care
louisa
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
That sounds really hard, I'm sorry to hear your parents aren't listening to you. Are you receiving any professional support (e.g, from a doctor, counsellor etc)? And if so, do you think your parents would feel differently if someone else could explain to them that mental health is just as real and important as physical health?
You also mentioned feeling like pretending and acting is tearing you down. Keeping up a façade all the time must be really tiring, and that's completely understandable - we all need to be able to express our emotions, its part of looking after ourselves. Is there anyone else around you, other than your parents, that you might be comfortable speaking to about how you're feeling?
Don't worry, you're not wasting anyone's time, we care about you and you're not alone. *hug*
What's been happening recently, if anything, to change how you feel? Are you receiving any kind of support at all at the moment, no matter how small it is?
Please be assured though that you are not trapped or alone at all and that, unfortunately, many of us are feeling this way, and more--I know that I certainly am and have so many reasons too, anyone no one cares...
I understand that you do not want to upset your parents, and that is a good thing actually Hun, however they do say that the truth hurts. Maybe your parents will positively surprise you and be more supportive and understanding etc than what you may think?
Stay strong...Things are and will continue to look up!
Hannah x
Looking for your own purpose
Then you became a butterfly, a butterfly
I knew you always would''
- James Arthur (YOU)
Just wanted to chip in and say that I actually don't think Samaritans are capable of getting sick of people. I went through a period of emailing them quite often with very long rants, and was in a similar kind of mindset, thinking they must be getting tired of my shit. But, looking back, it's quite literally and fundamentally what they're there for - to listen.
Is there anyone else you could talk to at your college about what's happening with the bully (apologies if this has been asked, before) who might take you more seriously? I can imagine how frustrating it is being told you let him have your bag! :banghead:
How are you feeling now Hun?x