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I want to die..
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Hi, I'm really sorry about this, I know I dont come on Here often or support other people and so I really don't deserve your support and therefore will completely understand if you do not want to support me, but I thought I'd make a thread just in case...ive been suffering fRom severe depression and self harm for almost 7 years now, after some not very nice things happened to me when I was 12, in the last 7 years my emotions have been all over the place, I cant cope with what happened to me and this has caused me to make many suicide attempts because I no longer feel my life is worth living, I moved into a hostel in November last year and was referred to therapy, which I was told would take until July this year, as there is a very long waiting list, 2 weeks ago I made a suicode plan-for yesterday, in the hope that my gp would have listened to me by then and got me seen by the emergency assessment team, despite several gp appointments over the last 2 weeks I have not received any further support but instead have had my meds increased...I managed to survive yesterday purely because my friend was in trouble and needed me but now I'm alone the suicidal thoughts and feelings have come back and are ripping me apart, I just don't know what to do, I cant cope wwith life any longer, I have tried so hard to get more help but I feel that the only way out now is to die...what should I do?
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i know how you're feeling, i'm feeling pretty desperate and have asked for help many times but not getting it/ people not replying or calling back... it makes you feel pretty alone and like, well if they don't care, why should i?
but... even though there's loads of crap going round in my head there is a sort of inner strength that just keeps me going, and from what you say in the thread, it sounds like you have a certain strength and don't want to give up, but just feel desperate and frustrated, understandable. anyway i'm sorry i don't really have advice, but sometimes it helps to know that other people are with you.
please don't hurt yourself.. *hug*
Just because you can't offer support doesn't mean you shouldn't get some when you need some help. There are a lot of lovely helpful people here, that will help you no matter what. So please never think that you don't deserve help!
Please don't give in to what ever is taking over your body. Life is precious.
Need a chat. We can arrange something
Thats a really good step to be taking. A bit of support by your side is really good!
Hope it goes well, and you get more support from your gp's!
If you would like to let me know how you get on later! Up to you!
Just keep up the good work, and its nice to hear you got people around you that help. Support is the best help you could get from anyone!
Here if you need someone, i will always lend an ear!
Thanks for all your support guys, it means a lot
I just wanted to echo what the others have said and reassure you that you totally deserve to ask for - and receive - help here... these boards are for everyone, not just for people who post all the time
I'm so glad that you had the courage to make this thread, and that you've been to see your GP. It's really good that Hannah is there to support you as talking in a GP surgery can be daunting, but you obviously did well because they are taking you seriously and trying to get you help.
I'm hoping that these positive steps will keep the serious suicidal thoughts at bay, but if not you can always call Samaritans when things are bad and just talk through how you're feeling - sometimes this can help the moment to pass.
http://www.samaritans.org/
Tel: 08457 90 90 90
They also have an email service if you can't face talking: jo@samaritans.org
Also, I don't know if you've heard of our chat sessions? They can be a good way to both give and get support in real time, as well as getting to know other users a bit better - all the chat sessions are listed here if you're interested:
http://vbulletin.thesite.org/forumdisplay.php/144-Announcements
Please keep posting here and letting us know how you're doing
*hug*
How did the doctor's go today? Any news on the referral? Sending some big hugs *hug*
Have you got any plans over the weekend? It might help to have some distractions to help lift your mood a little...anything that's worked in the past?
You've done really well to talk to people about how you're feeling :yes:
I hope you are o.k as you can be right now. You can always message me if you need support or a chat. I come on the site daily so hopefully you wouldn't have to wait too long. I always found the mornings and times when I am alone the worst. I think god I've got the whole day to get through, try and take each day at a time.
Just hope you know people care about you and want to help.
Sorry to hear that you didn't go to the doctors, hopefully you can get another appt soon and get sorted. Always here for you.
Have you thought about texting/phoning a helpline. The Samaritans are good. and you don't even have to ring you can text them.
We all care, so keep posting if it's helping