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So I guess I've had a tough week, and not really been in the 'talking' mode. Wednesday, was the hardest day for me. I had been helping someone triple my age, as she was struggling with her move away from family etc. We had been talking for around 2 hours, and she turned around and called me an 'attention seeker'. That being my last straw, I OD'd. I had text my friend telling her I'm sorry but wanted the peace of not being looked upon as an 'attention seeker'. She had checked on me that following morning to see if I was still breathing.
Looks like I'm still here. Later that day I had an appointment with, Becky. She works at CAMHS - and being involved with them for sometime when I was back at home, I sort of understood how things worked. I told her what I had done, and she wanted me to go to hospital, obviously I refused and went home - but later that night, around 00:28am, the police knocked at the door. He was the most kind hearted police officer I ever spoke to - and he promised he'd stay with me if I agreed to get checked out, which he did. He seemed pretty worried, and I felt bad in a way.
Thursday I had the CURT team (CAMHS Urgent Response Team) do a Risk Assessment - to asses what risk I would be in. I was kind of in a smurfy mood and signed the form 'The Smurf' - to which she said ''Seeya Smurf'', when I went home.
I got a phonecall Saturday, asking if the CURT team could come over tomorrow (today). I agreed, seeing as she sounded lovely on the phone.
Come 1pm, I had a man instead. I saw him, and he just didn't care. He called me an attention seeker, and that he only does his job so he can pay his rent. Right then I wanted to full into a mode where I couldn't be woken. He left and I felt so lost. I didn't understand, and it's really made me think twice.
I would think most people do that sort of job cause they cared. Clearly not, I think it's fair to say, I won't be opening up to people about how I feel - cause they truly do think I'm an attention seeker.
Sorry guys.. needed somewhere to write this..
So I guess I've had a tough week, and not really been in the 'talking' mode. Wednesday, was the hardest day for me. I had been helping someone triple my age, as she was struggling with her move away from family etc. We had been talking for around 2 hours, and she turned around and called me an 'attention seeker'. That being my last straw, I OD'd. I had text my friend telling her I'm sorry but wanted the peace of not being looked upon as an 'attention seeker'. She had checked on me that following morning to see if I was still breathing.
Looks like I'm still here. Later that day I had an appointment with, Becky. She works at CAMHS - and being involved with them for sometime when I was back at home, I sort of understood how things worked. I told her what I had done, and she wanted me to go to hospital, obviously I refused and went home - but later that night, around 00:28am, the police knocked at the door. He was the most kind hearted police officer I ever spoke to - and he promised he'd stay with me if I agreed to get checked out, which he did. He seemed pretty worried, and I felt bad in a way.
Thursday I had the CURT team (CAMHS Urgent Response Team) do a Risk Assessment - to asses what risk I would be in. I was kind of in a smurfy mood and signed the form 'The Smurf' - to which she said ''Seeya Smurf'', when I went home.
I got a phonecall Saturday, asking if the CURT team could come over tomorrow (today). I agreed, seeing as she sounded lovely on the phone.
Come 1pm, I had a man instead. I saw him, and he just didn't care. He called me an attention seeker, and that he only does his job so he can pay his rent. Right then I wanted to full into a mode where I couldn't be woken. He left and I felt so lost. I didn't understand, and it's really made me think twice.
I would think most people do that sort of job cause they cared. Clearly not, I think it's fair to say, I won't be opening up to people about how I feel - cause they truly do think I'm an attention seeker.
Sorry guys.. needed somewhere to write this..
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If I were you I'd report him. And if he lost his job because of it, it would be his own fault, he had no right to say what he did its unprofessional.
Don't let that 'pain' stop you from opening up to others.
Stick with it you'll get there xx.
I know its not that same, but noone on the bords will ever call you attention seeking or anything.
I think you should report him, 'cos what he did is really not right
Stay strong hun *hug*
Nina x
they are not all like that though, the first lady you spoke to sounds nice and you sound like you get on with becky? i know it's hard when you are so desperate, but try not to give up on all of them just because of one twat.
*hug* back, nina, thank you!
Hmm, Becky hates me for telling her though, it's like she would have been happier if I wasn't here
How are you feeling? What have you been doing today?
Are you able to keep yourself safe? Please don't be afraid to ask someone for help if you feel that you can't cope. It's nothing to be ashamed of. You deserve help.
I'd definitely report the man - disgusting behaviour and a let down to his profession.
Hopefully you'll see someone different if they're still involved with your care.
How are you feeling now? x
Plugitin - wouldn't surprise me if they've given up on me. You be honest and you get hate for it. Still feeling crappy but hey, couldn't tell that man anything today! *hug*
Would you be able to call any friends and ask them to visit you, if they can?
I know that it's helpful to be honest about your feelings, but I don't want to do anything that would make you less able to express your feelings. Is it something graphic or that could cause unpleasant thoughts? I know I'm not coping myself, but I feel better about helping others, even if I'm suffering myself, it makes it easier somehow. Maybe you could still explain it, but substitute words or try your best maybe to imply what you actually mean to say, without saying it, if you think it could cause upset?
But even by your own admission, you're not. You've nothing to be ashamed of. You shouldn't ever be made to feel worthless, and don't use your yourself as an excuse for the treatment that you received last Thursday, because it's enough to make anybody angry. It's disgusting, it's wrong and nothing I'd just accept. You're in pain. You're obviously in need of help. You deserve it. You deserve love. You suffer from an illness, you should be treated with compassion.
Nina x
Same goes for me. If you want to message me feel free. Talking about it may be hard, but suffering in silence is harder. xx