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Feeling rubbish (could be triggering)
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I feel lousy right now.
I've got all the side effects of making myself sick going on; blood in my vomit, painful ulcers, torn skin around my mouth, headache, earache etc. but I can't stop doing it and my arms really hurt. I want to find someone and tell them everything and have a hug but there's no one to tell and besides I think I just made myself a bit unpopular for theological reasons over tea.
Sometimes I forget that my friends here don't really know much about me. In order to talk to someone I'd have to go right back to the beginning and I can't.
I bloody hate days like this.
I've got all the side effects of making myself sick going on; blood in my vomit, painful ulcers, torn skin around my mouth, headache, earache etc. but I can't stop doing it and my arms really hurt. I want to find someone and tell them everything and have a hug but there's no one to tell and besides I think I just made myself a bit unpopular for theological reasons over tea.
Sometimes I forget that my friends here don't really know much about me. In order to talk to someone I'd have to go right back to the beginning and I can't.
I bloody hate days like this.
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can you find a way to break the cycle, find someone to sit with, just watch tv or something?
Life can be so awful sometimes, I've learnt this. And a lot of people round me don't know my past, and those that do think I'm better now.. but just because they don't know, doesn't mean you can't talk to them. You don't necessarily have to explain everything to them, just tell them you are having a rubbish day, and that you need some cheering up. That's what I say to people.
And, it can just help (like Katralla said) to have someone there to sit with, even if you don't mention how crappy you feel, being with someone else can make you feel more safe and comfortable. I find that one of the main issues when I'm having a bad day, is that I don't feel safe by myself and there's nothing I can do about it. But being around other people makes it slightly easier, as you can't really do anything to harm yourself.
Just relax for the rest of the day, with a friend if you can. And if not, have a bubble bath, listen to some music (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auiJPav_aPo although it's quite depressing, her voice helps me to calm down) and snuggle up on the sofa with a hot water bottle
Thanks. I'm in halls so don't really have a sofa, bath or telly but I'll watch something on iPlayer for a bit I guess.
Might as well sit there as in your room, and then when someone passes it won't be empty and they may well pop in and then you'd have some company. I don't know if there's wireless and you could do the iPlayer watching in there instead? Or put a film on.
Aw okay, well I hope you feel a bit better soon *hug*