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Wishes i was dead...
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I really wish id just drop dead tonight,
im sick of fighting !!!
Sick of living !!!
I suffer from self harm, Depression, Insomnia, Eating disorder, impulsive and emotional disorder im sick too death of people bringing me down coz of it !!!
I lost my boyfriend coz of my mental health problems,
me and my best m8 fell out now giving me shit about my
mental health problems so is her boyfriend,
i want to die, i want to die now
im sick of fighting !!!
Sick of living !!!
I suffer from self harm, Depression, Insomnia, Eating disorder, impulsive and emotional disorder im sick too death of people bringing me down coz of it !!!
I lost my boyfriend coz of my mental health problems,
me and my best m8 fell out now giving me shit about my
mental health problems so is her boyfriend,
i want to die, i want to die now
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You shouldnt have to want to die.
Okay, im not going to say i suffer anywhere near as much as you..
but i felt much the same only days ago..
everything has suddenly changed, and im starting to realise that life can be good,
Yeah, it takes risks, and when your used to everything you know being terrible, its scary to take that step to change everything, because you don't know how it will work out,
But it is definately worth that risk dont you think??
Dont let all this take over.. only you can control your self, despite you probably feeling that your life is ruled by all that you suffer from right now.
As a really good friend said to me today,
The only thing you can be certain of in life, is that, at some point, it will come to an end.
Everything else, every day , is about taking a chance and getting the most out of life..
I dont know ... this is just a hunch, but because you posted this, i believe that somewhere inside you, theres something saying, no... you dont truly want to end your life right now.
Find that strength.
I believe you can get through xxxx *hug*
i hate going out as suffer from social shyness,
i just wanna hide away from the world !!! looks like i can now as wont b going shopping as no friends wont b going out for walks, my eating disorder group ends soon im guna just hide away from the world x
Sometimes ive found i do have to just hide from the world.. to be honest i think this is a better solution ??
Just try to get out, is there anywhere quiet and peaceful that you can escape to??
I often go somewhere like this just to get away and calm down, chill out...
You say you hate going out, yet you seem to be noticeably bothered by the fact you think you cant?
i know how u feel xx
but u gotta keep strong, think about all the positive things in life, and think about all the people who will miss u if you went xx I would definitely miss you *hug*
I don't like the thought of going out most of the time, but once I am out I don't mind too much (or have sat indoors for too long the feeling of being trapped is stronger and I have to get out).
If that makes sense?
As the others have said, I know it is hard, but find the strong inner self you have that allows you to keep going. It may not get better straight away, but hopefully in a few months/years/however long it takes (and you will get better) you will look back at this point, glad you are still alive and probably a stronger person for it.
helpful :yeees:
sometimes life can seem so horrendous and dark that being dead seems like a better alternative.
it's not though, depressedgal *hug*
if people can't cope with the problems you have then they are not the sort of people you need in your life anyway, you need people who can support you and be there for you. that doesn't make it easier because it's so horrible to be alone, but there are people out there who will accept you for who and how you are and who will support you and be there for you while you try to get better. a lot of people have no experience of mental health and they don't know how to respond to behaviour or emotions that to them seem completely strange.
you say your support group is coming to an end, is that the only support you have at the moment? is it an nhs group or organised by someone else?
take care and remember that there are other people who feel the same way as you, you're not the only one. mental illness is exactly what is says on the tin, an illness, something that can be overcome with the right help.
ghostlife i just love u
anyways yeh groups by nhs i dno why im going on tues as so called EX BEST M8 says there stupid !!
Ive decided NOT guna kill myself but do need some time to think
so not sure wheather to take a week of from seeing care worker i dno coz i reali cant face going out right now xx
so glad to hear your not going to kill yourself *hug*
take things slowly, think it all through, but it might be a good idea to talk to someone before it gets worse again. take your time though, dont rush it *hug*
here whenever u want to talk
If it's helping you it's not stupid. Keep going as long as you are able to.
No matter how you feel, keep posting on here.
*hug*
but then, i often do it. I think its just that you want them to be strong and get through it. xx
is your mum somebody you can talk to and who will support you??
I know its difficult making the first move, but if you can talk to her, then its one of the best ways to get help , just having your mum there and understanding xx
*hug* things WILL get better, at one point or another x
Love her to bits but i think sometimes dont even try to understand xx
Its good to hear she is there for you and supportive of you where she can be though!!
My dad knows about my self-harm, and talks to people i am getting help from, but find it too hard to talk to me himself... and i kinda respect that.
Maybe its a similar sort of thing for your mum ?? x
I darent tell my mum, as it would give her another reason to bitch about me
and a family friend who i talk to a lot, wants to help me, but she doesnt understand so asks a lot of question without being much help to me.
hope things get better soon *hug*
id love to help u
awww questions can b annoying its like urr bk at skool
wnt ur dad tell ur mum tho xx
still thats good for me, as i wouldnt likke to explain its the way she makes me feel that causes me to self-harm sometimes
hugs!!! im always here
xx
and same for you xx *hug*
Thank you