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almost the worst morning ever
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I woke up at 6.30am with very painful stomach pains. I have a huge phobia of being sick so tried to stay calm. I made myself a makeshift hot water bottle using an empty water bottle and some hot water from the tap but still the pain didn't go away. I waited for two hours pretty much doubled over in my bed in pain before going to the nursing bay at uni. I was feeling panicky and the nurse that I usually see is always really supportive. I just needed to lie down a bit and maybe ask for a hot water bottle.
I managed to stumble over there in a stupid teary state and saw a nurse I hadnt seen before. I was crying and just trying to tell her I have panic attacks so my stomach pain is making me very concerned because of my phobia of vomiting. She told me I need to go get something to eat and maybe some water, then if I need to be sick I will be and if not..then I wont. I freak out at the word 'vomit' so this didnt help. She was really nice but kept asking about what I eat blatently trying to make out I'm anorexic. When I tried to explain my phobia adding that I avoid eating meat at uni incase of food poisoning she asked how long I had had issues with food
and what do I usually eat in the morning.
This is really embarassing but I was ringing my mum frantically and she wasnt pleased because she was at work and kept saying she couldnt come pick me up. I realise how selfish it sounds but in the state I was in it felt like my only hope was to get her to take me away. I kept saying that I'd pay for transport (she doesnt have a car) just to come but she said it isnt about the money. She has a lot on at work and that I'm in the best place medically if I am ill and not to fret.
The nurse gave me a hot water bottle and I had a lie down in the bed and the stomach pains stopped. This is the really embarassing part. It was all just probably indigestion. I felt awful and like a stupid child so walked out of the nursing bay straight into the counselling office where a woman was really kind and talked to me for a bit. I had to leave and go there because I felt like I had no other choice but to hurt myself. I know it sounds stupid but that's how pathetic and embarassed I feel
I am okay now, no stomach pains. Just how am I going to survive in the 'real world' when at 22 I freak out so much? I just feel so embarassed. Although I dont think the nurse understood very well. She didnt offer me any other tissues and just left me on my own, not offering me a magazine to read or to lie down in the bed or anything. I feel bad but I think that is why I just walked out. Just wanted to post here because gahhhh....
I managed to stumble over there in a stupid teary state and saw a nurse I hadnt seen before. I was crying and just trying to tell her I have panic attacks so my stomach pain is making me very concerned because of my phobia of vomiting. She told me I need to go get something to eat and maybe some water, then if I need to be sick I will be and if not..then I wont. I freak out at the word 'vomit' so this didnt help. She was really nice but kept asking about what I eat blatently trying to make out I'm anorexic. When I tried to explain my phobia adding that I avoid eating meat at uni incase of food poisoning she asked how long I had had issues with food
and what do I usually eat in the morning.This is really embarassing but I was ringing my mum frantically and she wasnt pleased because she was at work and kept saying she couldnt come pick me up. I realise how selfish it sounds but in the state I was in it felt like my only hope was to get her to take me away. I kept saying that I'd pay for transport (she doesnt have a car) just to come but she said it isnt about the money. She has a lot on at work and that I'm in the best place medically if I am ill and not to fret.
The nurse gave me a hot water bottle and I had a lie down in the bed and the stomach pains stopped. This is the really embarassing part. It was all just probably indigestion. I felt awful and like a stupid child so walked out of the nursing bay straight into the counselling office where a woman was really kind and talked to me for a bit. I had to leave and go there because I felt like I had no other choice but to hurt myself. I know it sounds stupid but that's how pathetic and embarassed I feel
I am okay now, no stomach pains. Just how am I going to survive in the 'real world' when at 22 I freak out so much? I just feel so embarassed. Although I dont think the nurse understood very well. She didnt offer me any other tissues and just left me on my own, not offering me a magazine to read or to lie down in the bed or anything. I feel bad but I think that is why I just walked out. Just wanted to post here because gahhhh....
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First off! *hugs* I went to see a doctor before because I was pretty sure I was dying but it was actually only hearburn. And yet, when I was actually dying I refused to go and see a doctor because I thought I was only a little bit sick!
I think you should get yourself a hot water bottle asap anyway =] They're useful to have. You can get a really cute one with a fluffy dog cover or something!
Hope you're feeling better now!
Don't be feeling stupid - you were in a lot of pain and you went to see a nurse! It makese sense!
I went all the way to hospital once, took the day off work at the risk of an angry meeting and dragged my flatmate with me because I was having really bad chest pains. I waited for hours and hours, got blood tests and xrays only to be told that it must be stress related and I should go home and take some paracetamol.
I felt like an idiot.
Also, don't worry about getting panicy at 22, you are really young and have loads of time to learn some coping techniques and be more confident that you can cope. You did cope, even when you had a wobble- you're still here chick.
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=] Best of luck! Sounds good, to be honest.
This confuses me somewhat. I know if I had an experience with food pisoning then I probably wouldn't want to eat that food either.
Do you have any friends or family to talk to?
You'll be ok. Give yourself a break
I don't think Rach has actually had food poisoning, but phobias cause extreme avoidance, and I'm guessing she sees meat as being a risky food, so doesn't eat it just in case. If she's owt like I was a few years ago, she won't eat any meat unless she has personally cooked it (and probably burnt it to the point of inedibility!).
haha, too right
I left quickly, haha.
I understand about freaking out, cuz you are at uni, in an unfamiliar place, and when you feel sick and anxious it's really tough! all you wanna be is at home under your old duvet!
I think that in the counselling if you explain your phobia and things, and make an 'action plan' for if something like this happens again, so you will know exactly who to contact, what you yourself can do to help calm you down etc, it will take some of the fear away.