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I just wanna cry !!!!

Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
in Sex & Relationships
Hiya guys

I've just done my first year at uni, well when I say done, I've fucked it up. The first term was OK, I passed, but the second term things started turning bad.

My flatmates all started digging into my self confidence, so many things that were not an issue with me before uni were all used as insults against me, like my build (I'm a skinny little thing) and my previous relationships. They said they were only joking but they also knew that these really upset me, and the amount of times I went into my room and cried myself to sleep was crazy.

This has led on to me having basically no confidence at all anymore, I am just so not ME anymore. And they know me best because they've been living with me for the best part of a year. They have all been so damn nasty to me, and I dont know who I am anymore.

I know I can be silly, but even going into my bedroom putting on my earphones and listening to whole again or eternal flame (my favourite ever songs ever) which I used to do all the time without even thinking about it, I cant even do that anymore because I've started hating who I am.

God this post seems so sad and makes no sense but I just need to get it all out because otherwise I'm gonna go mad I swear I am !!

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Brian

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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Sounds like you need to make some new friends mate! Do they know they have upset you, they may just be having a laugh and not realise that you have been insulted..
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Oh yeah, they meant it alright. The last week in the flat was horrible, there was so much confrontatiton between me and my flatmates. Most of the time they just ganged up on me all at once it just freaked me out soo much.

    I do have mates, but sometimes it feels weird because I cant really bond with them because I usually have more in common with girls but having 99% girl mates has its own problems.

    Grrr I just feel so silly....


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    Brian
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Fuckem...you dont need to associate with your flatmates..

    Just get on with your course and go out with your mates...Nothing wrong with having mostly girl mates.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I quit uni myself *partly* due to not getting on with my flatmates so I know where you are coming from. It can make life unbearable to live somewhere where you are unhappy as you have nowhere to escape to. But it is nearly the end of term. You are not living with them next year are you?

    Do not worry about only being friends with girls, that is very good (although I can understand you wanting male friends too). It sounds a bit like a personality clash and some (sad) people like to gang up on one victim to make themselves feel better and "bond". Sad but true I think. This is only one short period in your life and I can understand you feeling down but it will soon be over and you never have to talk to these guys again.
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I know deep down just to fuck the lot of them (not literally I might add), but I only left that flat on Friday and I got the summer to think things through, watch Big Brother/ World Cup and chill out hehe.

    I guess its just the scary bit everyone gets between childhood and adulthood and finding out who I really am. But then again I think I got some other issues in my life like ex girlfreinds bugging me, and parental pressure and stuff its all just getting too much for me sometimes.

    Thanx for yer help though guys <IMG SRC="smile.gif" border="0" ALT="icon">

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    Brian
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Listen mate, they're just bullys and they need someone to pick on and they've picked you.

    Next time, just ignore them, go for a pint, or go to see your other mates.

    If worst comes to worst let me know and you can have my mobile number and txt me when you get down, I'm a good mate <IMG SRC="biggrin.gif" border="0" ALT="icon">

    Chin up mate, it's not the be-all and end-all.

    Phil <IMG SRC="smile.gif" border="0" ALT="icon">
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    im starting uni in sept and im starting to suspect that exactly the same thing is goin to happen to me
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hi

    All I can say is they ain't worth it and I know how you feel. They say that bullies bully people they are jealous of so you be proud of yourself and what you have achieved in life so far.

    Take care
    Ann
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    Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    See how things go when you go back after the summer. Things might of changed, you never know. But try think of a back up plan incase nothing has changed, for example talk to some of your other mates to see if they have a spare bed at their place. At least that way you can get away from it all.
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