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Ive decided i might as well kill myself. look dont bother repling, there no point wasting ur time and the money u spend on the net. the final straw was just now. i tx my ex g/f saying i'll call her at 9 and guess what her fucking dick head (sorry for swearing) of a b/f tx me back saying hello, guess who its ME! shes busy at the mo but she will tx u back later and u can call when u said u would., and heres the worst bit, cant wait to see you again. how fucking sarky does that sound!!!! try rubbing it in some more while i feel really low already, oh well why not kick me while im down. hell, why not ripe out my heart as well, oh no wait, save that for the doctors to give to some poor unfortunate person who was not born with a proper heart. this has pushed me over the edge now.
actually thinking about it i wont kill myself cos that'll make all the people who want me to, extreamly happy. and how in hell am i gona punch him. right this is for the blokes, sorry ladies, any one got ideas how i can get back at him, im not a violent person and sure i should have nuffing to do with him cos my ex chose him, but when someone trys to dig at me so obviously they have to be taught a lesson right?
anyways help. hm i really do feel like killing myself thou....
If you have 3 friends, you are a rich man, no matter how much money you have.
actually thinking about it i wont kill myself cos that'll make all the people who want me to, extreamly happy. and how in hell am i gona punch him. right this is for the blokes, sorry ladies, any one got ideas how i can get back at him, im not a violent person and sure i should have nuffing to do with him cos my ex chose him, but when someone trys to dig at me so obviously they have to be taught a lesson right?
anyways help. hm i really do feel like killing myself thou....
If you have 3 friends, you are a rich man, no matter how much money you have.
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((((((0)))))) relax huney! I know its hard! Just try to ignore it, it sounds hard but it works! Go out and find someone else! This ex boyf of hers sounds like a bit of a prat! You seem nice enough, dont want to kill yourself over this! And if you want to punch this guy go for it! It wont solve anything but hey, he sounds like he needs a punch!
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Chill, it ain't all that bad, what am I sayin, it is. Hmmm, me and my ex split up on bad terms, and as a result we don't see each other at all anymore. Which I'm happy with. She rubbed it in loads when we split up, showing me text messages from her 'friend' saying how he "couldn't stop thinking about the previous night". (That tore the ring off my finger!). Kick me when I'm down... how nice of her, obviously you peeps don't know the whole story and its too damn long to write, plus no-one cares and I'm not exactly sure about everything that happened! Anyway, ex's aren't worth it, if you can still be friends thats great, you're too brilliant people, however if one is still causing friction, best to forget about them, in this case its the next not the ex at fault.
Hmmm this reminds me of my great depression a few months back... I've still got a book somewhere, I wrote down in it everything that meant anything to me about the relationship, I think I wrote nearly every last second of it... I never read it now, I just had to get it out of my system. I see you're trying to do the same thing, get everything out, make yourself feel better, I hope its working, coz there are a hell of a lot of peeps here who care and don't want people to get pushed over the edge like that.
When I was depressed I went on walks, I even borrowed my grandads dog! I used to go out on my day off from college and just walk for miles... thinking, come back, and relax. This went on only for about a month (twice a week) and I was totally refreshed, ready to get on with life, obviously I still had emotions flying around, I'd still cry on my own and stuff but at least i was able to push most of it aside and get on.
Sorry, I'm good at talking about my problems and stuff and I know your's isn't exactly a relationship problem, from what I've seen around this board you have a number. I just hope you see that its not worth giving up! I still have the rope I cut myself down from. Lucky I had a pen knife on me, if I didn't well, you wouldn't be reading this now.
Just hang in there, my way of looking at it (i'm not sure how old you are but), I'm 18 soon, when I get a job, I can piss off and start a life for myself do what I want to do, don't have to worry about anything as such.
Anyway, this is just rambling really!
Take care! If you need me e-mail me or find my yahoo ID on my introduction thread
Not getting caught is only half the fun!!
I'm the rest!!
Bout the bf thing...maybe he's trying to be nice to you, hoping that there's no hard feelings. Alright, he's going out with you're ex, but she's allowed to move on. it's good that you two are still talking to each other...maybe you should be civil with the bf.
don't kill urself. i'm figuring this is a call for attn, that you want someone to help you. well, you've started at the right place, but maybe it's time to go to teh pros...
www.depressionalliance.com (or .org, mebbe???)...check it out, for your own sake. people do care about you mate. really, they do. think bout who you'd be hurting if you took the easy way out...the easy way out...r u a coward? i don't think so. you can fight thru this mate, you really can. it wont be easy, but you CAN GET THROUGH IT!
DM
I've not lost my mind it's inserted elsewhere - hence the limp.
get away from this girl, make new friends, create a new life for urself that you want.
Join a club, take up a hobby, meet new ppl, make new friends.
Don't let ppl in the past make u feel this way, because if they do the obviously don't care about u and are not worf it. Do any of your friends talk with you about how you are feeling? There has got to b both giv and take in a friendship, so if they're not gonna b there 4u, go out, find ppl that are nice and r willing to listen to you and accept u 4 who u r.
Get a councellor they wil point u in the rite direction, see ur gp, they will put u on anti-depressants. Don't let these ppl rule urlife coz they r obviously not worf it.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
Punching him might make you feel better but what if he comes back with a bigger, harder punch? Violence solves nothing! It justs gets you into deeper shit!
The world will end in 5 minutes. Please log out...
L-I-L
If you have 3 friends, you are a rich man, no matter how much money you have.
her boyfriend is more than an asshole - fair enough. so why waste YOUR precious time on even THINKING of an asshole when you can think about a lot more other things?
she seems to still care a lot about you...but may not share the same feeling anymore. you're lucky that she's being so nice about the whole thing, some of my ex's has been total assholes! how u think i felt at the time? sometimes just being able to hold the friendship there is nice. nothing more.
u told us not to bother replying, but look at the number of replies! it must mean something in ur life right? don't let us down.
by treating her badly after her treating u so nicely is just plain nasty. why go there?
u might wanna forget about her for a while - but let her know u need some time on your own...find yourself again where ever you have went. don't blank her. it's nasty.
and just think - before you know it...you'll be back on track again. everyone has been where u have been...and it's a fact everyone gets over it...and a fact that everyone will be happier...and so will you.
Pull yourself together mate. Don't let her b/f see that he is getting to you. Don't give him the satisfaction. You have got to get over her. I was in the same situation as you about a year ago but I felt there was no point hiding myself away, so I picked my self up, held my head high and started enjoying life. No matter how bad you feel there is always someone in a worse position than you.
dont bother posting, cos i doubt i'll be here to read it
Good Bye every body.
L-I-L 2001
also i think that suicide is a really selfish thing to do. you get away from your pain, but you give your family and friends a lifetime of grief and regrets and thinking 'maybe i could have stopped it, been nicer to her' etc.
suicide is NEVER the answer. there is always somewhere you can go for help!
It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
What is it you want us to say? You keep posting, saying its your last, you don't want replys, yet you read them anyway. I can tell you're writing all this in the heat of the moment. You're missing the whole point of being human... oh lives are not linear, they are what we make them. I figured this out myself.
IOW: If you sit back and let life bitchslap you all the time then you might as well be dead. But if you stand up proud, forget all the shit in your life, and really concentrate on what makes you happy, and YOURSELF, then your life will be better and worth living!! Maybe you won't notice for a while, but its worth it in the long run!!
For gods sake! Stand up tall and do something instead of crying and preaching to yourself death is the answer. My words are harsh but think about it, is what I'm saying wrong?
Yeah, I get down, but at the end of the day, what you get from others are merely words, its up to you! Theres nothing wrong with being selfish every now and again as long as your happy.
Your ex sounds nice, but her nex (New guy) doesn't. Violence is not the answer, though I find beating up the wall of a pillow or something helps you get it out of your system. I think maybe you're taking things to extremes here, afterall its sounds like the guy might be being friendly. thats the problem with txt, you have no tone of voice to go on.
If its not our advice you want, then maybe you'd be better posting a professional site or something. But they are trained to help people, remember some of us here have experiences in our lives similar to yours and we've got by, so if we can, why can't you? Come on at least try!
Pull yourself out of your hole!! It may take you some time, but start doing it! Get a new hobby! Look for a new gf! DO NOT TURN TO DRUGS OR ALCOHOL WHATEVER YOU DO!!
Sorry if I've upset you, or anyone else in this room, but sometimes, a bit of harsh advice is good for you, esp. if you are crying out for help but say you are not prepared to listen (IOW).
What would you do if no-one had replied like you wanted? I assume you'd think no-one here cares, and you'd get more upset?
Anyway, I'm probably just making things worse.
My sincerest apologies if this fact be true. But I don't see what else we can all tell you. All I know is that NO-ONE is worth giving up on and I'm sure everyone here will agree with me on that!! We won't give up on you. So don't you give up on yourself, besides its like your giving up on us too, as if we're not even making an effort.
I'm sure we'll here from you soon. At least I hope. I know this contradicts something I said in another post, but...
You CAN'T always live for now, now may not be the time, so live for the future! But don't live for your past, thats the worst thing you can do!
Not getting caught is only half the fun!!
I'm the rest!!
When u feel this low its really hard to b positive aboput anything, but if u dont itll only b worse for yourself. Sitting there telling yourself u r depressed etc etc will only make u more depressed. U have to say ok I feel really shit, how can I make this situation better for myself (and the answer to that one isnt suicide!).
I really hope that u havent followed through with your last messege. I dont even no u and Im worried sick that u have just given up... it makes me a bit angry aswell (dont take this the wrong way Im just being honest). I just feel really helpless when sopmeone says they r gonna kill themselves over the internet, coz there is only so much u can do, and also there is no way of getting hold of them so u r left feeling really worried and crappy about the whole thing. Hopefully u will be reading this and taking advice from it and trying to help yourself...Ill b really worried if u aint coz I will only think the worst has happened.
I never said I loved you...
However I will fuck you...
until someone better comes along!!!!
I am worried that you have decided to go through with it. Which is now upsetting me and others here. When you posted this thread, despite requesting that we are not to reply everyone did, because we wanted to help. You posted several times in this thread regarding things we've said. Now you are not responding at all. You came here for help (Or so I would assume) and as a result we are(or at least I am) feeling pretty useless as despite our best advice you went along with your own opinion.
Then again, you may still be with us (I hope), but maybe embarrased by what you posted (saying this was definatly it) so don't want to post anything.
I was asking at college earlier and out of 14 people I asked 11 said that they'd considered committing suicide. Its just part of growing up. Specially for teens, hormones are everywhere. We all have our "Kevin and Perry" stage where EVERYTHING is "SO UNFAIR". (In fact i think Kevin tried to hang himself) so it goes to show, lots of people have troubles they don't think they can cope with, but they don't give in.
I am a complete pussy, a total coward. I've been picked on, bullied, etc. I got into a hole, I was going to do it. But despite being a coward I stood up and thought, I'm not taking this, why should I give up my life? Everyone is entitled to one.
Here's my philosophy of YOU (this applies to anyone and everyone)
I think its weird to think that YOU are random. You were created at random, from one in millions of sperm and one in hundreds of eggs. From two in billions of parents. What if one of the other sperm got to the egg first? YOU would not exist. What if a different egg was released? YOU would not exist. What if one of your parents was different? YOU would not exist. Think of all the sperms and eggs in the past that haven't been used. All those trillions (a billion billion) of cobinations of people that COULD've exsisted. But never did... whats my point?
You are lucky you got this much of a chance, so don't waste it.
I am so completly worried about this whole thing. But wats the point, we will never no the real answer unless he either comes back and lets us no that he is ok, or unless he really went ahead with it and never posts again.
Can I just say that I think its an increadibly selfish thing to come on here and tell everyone u r going to go and kill yourself and leave everyone worrying and wondering if it actually happened. I can totally relate to suicde, Ive been there myself, but I would never leave so many people left wondering if I actually did it or not. I cant help but be angry at wats gone on in this thread, sorry if I offend anyone by saying this, but Im so upset about it all and thats my way of expressing it.
it is selfish to commit suicide and leave others worrying and having to live with it for the rest of their lives. your parents and close friends. besides, there is nothing in this world we cannnot sort out...it's just a matter do we wanna sort it out.
and seems so that LIL can't be assed...instead decides to take the coward's way out...im sorry for saying this...
but if ur still there LIL, why not reply?
yeah hes left us all wondering n if he has commited suicide i think that is a really sad thing and i also think it is pretty selfish too,
but their have been times when i have been really really depressed and have thought things would never get any better,
sure i feel ok now but there have been times when ive thought everthing in my life has just been shit its keeps getting shitter and it will carry on getting shitter, and ive thought god i wanna be dead soo much,
i dont think i ever could kill myself though, id be too scared, im scared of dying anyway so to do it to myself i would have to be like i dont know way way way down,
this is obviously how this guy feels, hes posted about all his mates falling out with him and all about his ex, he feels as if he has no one, its ok for us all to say we r here and we will be his friends, but he hardly knows us,
like if i was upset about something ok, i know i have lots of u i could ring or come on here and talk to about stuff, and i know you would all cheer me up like my friends do, but i know you all already so its different,
i think id find it very hard to come on message boards and talk to ppl i didnt even know about all my problems and b made to feel better by them,
its like when i first got ill, i couldnt move out of bed for two weeks hardly when i had the tonsilitis because i was hurting all over, i couldnt eat i couldnt drink i had all this drugs shit going on and i was having these full blown panic attacks every single day,
where i wouldnt be able to breath id be heaving but not being sick idd be in pain all over going dizzy and just feelin majorly shit n id end up screaming my fuckin head off with pain n fright n getting worse n worse, until eventually id just cry n cry myself to sleep,
now at this time i was fuckin well depressed n i just wanted to be asleep all the time so that i didnt have to think or feel anything, i kept thinking god it would just be so much better if i was just dead, i wouldnt have to be upset or in pain or anything,
we need to be sympathetic towards this guy and not tell him he is selfish, yeah weve all been depressed but ppl telling you things will get better doesnt make you feel any better at the times because you are depressed,
LIL i hope you havent done anything like kill yourself because it would be really bad, if you have well u will never read this and i feel real sad that u have done it, but if u havent please post and let us all know, and maybe we can help you out a bit!
Sorry if this is really long.
©lovely freaks
MTS ^5
I dont think suisced itself is selfish...I have been there myslef and casn totally realte to it. I do however think telling everyone on a website that u r gonna go and do it and then disappear is very selfish...I cant help how I feel but Ive been left worried sick about this person and I no I would never tell a bunch of people I was gonna kill myslef and not return to post for a few days, ofcourse people r gonna be worried. Anyway, Ill go check out this other post now, just wanted to make it clear that I do understand suicide itself and It wasnt that that nmade me angry <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">