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STD and HIV test - I am so frigtened
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Hi all, My first visit here, I am just so terribly frightened I don't know what to do.
In december I very stupidly slept with a stranger. I am fairly sure we used a condom, but I'm ashamed to say I was very drunk and cannot be totally sure. I went yesterday for a STD test, preliminary results showed no problems. But I am so terrified because I had an HIV test. When the nurse went through the riskiest ways to contract HIV, one of then was having sex with someone outside the UK. The man I slept with was foreign - I realise that this fact doesn't mean a lot but it has just put such fear in my heart. I don't get my results until next wednesday I getting increasingly physically and mentally sick with worry. I can't sleep, I keep crying and have been drinking heavily to try and forget my fears. I just don't know how I will cope until wednesday - there are many reasons as to why I should be fine, but what if I'm one of the unlucky ones?
I appreciate no one can say anything which will make this situation better, I just have no one to turn to.
In december I very stupidly slept with a stranger. I am fairly sure we used a condom, but I'm ashamed to say I was very drunk and cannot be totally sure. I went yesterday for a STD test, preliminary results showed no problems. But I am so terrified because I had an HIV test. When the nurse went through the riskiest ways to contract HIV, one of then was having sex with someone outside the UK. The man I slept with was foreign - I realise that this fact doesn't mean a lot but it has just put such fear in my heart. I don't get my results until next wednesday I getting increasingly physically and mentally sick with worry. I can't sleep, I keep crying and have been drinking heavily to try and forget my fears. I just don't know how I will cope until wednesday - there are many reasons as to why I should be fine, but what if I'm one of the unlucky ones?
I appreciate no one can say anything which will make this situation better, I just have no one to turn to.
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also, there is alot of medication that can help HIV sufferers (i.e. people who are HIV+)!
Let us know how u get on!
It's easy to turn to drink in a situation like this, but try not to use it as a crutch or to numb your worries. There are people on here you can talk to about it, who are always willing to listen and lend an ear.
Hopefully you'll be fine, and all you'll take away from the experience is an appreciation of how important it is to use a condom...not least when it's with a stranger (I don't mean to lecture, I know you know this already and regret it). If you need to talk or rant or just some kind words then PM me, otherwise I hope your results are negative and that you can feel stronger between now and the results date.
All I can say is goodluck!! Let us know how things go!
And remember, we all make mistakes in life! You're not the only one :yes:
Hugs
Andrew
Im not entirely sure what does it mean to have HIV - its never been explained to me - someone said its not the end of the world but i dont know what it does.....
Jenni xx
Here's a link to TheSite's fact sheet on HIV
Look after yourself
Here's what the Society of Sexual Health Advisers say:
You can find more information here
What country was he from? The foreign factor shouldn't necessarily be of particular worry if you're talking about a country such as france. It isn't as if the UK has a super-low STD rate in comparison much of the Europe - in fact, rates are fairly high.
Some foreign continents and countries do have serious problems though, especially africa & asia.
Good luck.
With your docs I think you can just make an appointment in a about a week and get the results.