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I'm such a bitch
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I'm having the most minor of all surgeries done next week. I get a call from my mother yesterday saying that she would like to come down. Tuesday till Friday. And stay with us, as we have some spare rooms. She asked of course, she didn't just invite herself down, and of course I said it would be fine. I know she means no harm, she just wants to come down and make sure I'm taken care of. Just make sure everything is all right and be nice and kind.
But the fact of the matter is, I didn't want anybody around. I wanted to take this time as a little my_name vacation. I'd have all day to myself, no boyfriend around, just me and myself. I wanted to wake up when I felt like it, drink from dawn till he comes home, sit around and play sims all day. I just wanted to be alone. I never get to and I really enjoy it.
I know I'm not going to tell my mother no, she can't come down. I know its not going to be horrible when she does. I just feel so bad for thinking the way I do. And even when I know its not going to be bad and she is just being nice, I still, even now, wish that she wouldn't visit.
But the fact of the matter is, I didn't want anybody around. I wanted to take this time as a little my_name vacation. I'd have all day to myself, no boyfriend around, just me and myself. I wanted to wake up when I felt like it, drink from dawn till he comes home, sit around and play sims all day. I just wanted to be alone. I never get to and I really enjoy it.
I know I'm not going to tell my mother no, she can't come down. I know its not going to be horrible when she does. I just feel so bad for thinking the way I do. And even when I know its not going to be bad and she is just being nice, I still, even now, wish that she wouldn't visit.
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Won't you get another opportunity for "me time" soon enough? If not, then it might be worth explaining to her how you feel. She's just being a mother though, bless her, and it might make you feel better having her there, I suppose.
Otherwise, maybe she could join you in your all day drinking
She was just so excited. She even called me at work to tell me that she was thinking about this becasue she would have been gone the rest of the night. I guess I should enjoy it, be thankful that she cares.
Don't feel like a bitch! I once cried when my parents cancelled their holiday because I'd been so looking forward to being left in the house on my own. OK so I was about 15 at the time but still, those kinds of feelings never change.