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Feeling fucked up.....
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I dont know where to start.....
I went to see a councellor yesterday, and its made me think about stuff.
Since last october when my ex dumped me i haven't been right in the head. I was planning my own suicide. Well i was 10 when i first felt like this but it started again a year ago.
I just feel like all my friends have someone who loves them, and i don't. My ex has dissapeared again since talking to me, his msn accounts been deleted, he's moved and i don't know if he's ok - i'm worried sick about him because i think i still love him. I keep having dreams of how we used to be, how happy i was and now i've lost it. My friends just say he obviously doesn't care about me so why should i? But i can't help it. Easy for them to say....i just feel like no one really cares about how i'm feeling - i don't want to talk about it to them anymore because i just get negative comments, so i keep it to myself and it's getting me so down.
I got worried abit ago about him when i didn't know where he was, he doesnt answer texts and when i rang a woman (i think his mum) answered his phone, so i freaked out and hung up. They tried calling back but i regected it - feeling stupid. Now i can't bring myself to try again because i'll look clingy, when he probably doesn't give a shit.
Oh i'm messed up :banghead: I don't even know why i posted this....
I went to see a councellor yesterday, and its made me think about stuff.
Since last october when my ex dumped me i haven't been right in the head. I was planning my own suicide. Well i was 10 when i first felt like this but it started again a year ago.
I just feel like all my friends have someone who loves them, and i don't. My ex has dissapeared again since talking to me, his msn accounts been deleted, he's moved and i don't know if he's ok - i'm worried sick about him because i think i still love him. I keep having dreams of how we used to be, how happy i was and now i've lost it. My friends just say he obviously doesn't care about me so why should i? But i can't help it. Easy for them to say....i just feel like no one really cares about how i'm feeling - i don't want to talk about it to them anymore because i just get negative comments, so i keep it to myself and it's getting me so down.
I got worried abit ago about him when i didn't know where he was, he doesnt answer texts and when i rang a woman (i think his mum) answered his phone, so i freaked out and hung up. They tried calling back but i regected it - feeling stupid. Now i can't bring myself to try again because i'll look clingy, when he probably doesn't give a shit.
Oh i'm messed up :banghead: I don't even know why i posted this....
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Do you any close friends who you can talk to and help get your mind off him?
and it will get worse before it gets better... the very fact you are talking about it is bound to bring up some raw emotions and stuff and be upsetting for you. like kentish said though, you need to move on... counselling is one way of working towards doing that if you cannot manage it on your own... but you need to decide how helpful it is to you and whether you are ready to deal with all that stuff and move on too?!
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Also, have a read through these articles:
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I really hope you're feeling better soon