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fundamental shift in mentality.......
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don't post on here that often anymore i have swung to the p+d forum recently, however in the light of recent events there is no better place to go, so.......
i've been smoking weed about 4 and a half years now (never touched a fag btw), more heavily for the last 2 years (prolly has something to do with uni being in shit location, no nightlife etc so mostly out of boredom and escapism) but it does go up and down, rarely go a day without it and the longest stretch i could remember without was 5 days, which shows how addicted i am.........stopped dealing about 8 months ago, however over the last 2 months the usage has gone up quite a bit, maybe 2/3 8ths a week, which i now can't afford and not practical with final year of studies being the hardest..........thought about quitting several times, which isn't easy when your social circles revolve around stoners and uni is a hotbed of drugs lol........but never really made a conscious effort, guess i enjoy it too much, every birthday i kinda think am i getting too old for this shit.........i'm 20 atm btw.
anyways, i went home last week in the knowledge i can't score there so thought this would be good to get a break, that was it...........came back after 8 days and felt instantly wary about the availability of drugs, and not sure why, a part of me must want to let it go........so i had a few puffs that night and the following day with friends, thought i would re-adjust as usual but ended up feeling quite ill and hungover the next day, and the physical act of smoking felt really dirty, like worse than the first time if that's possible..........i'm usually quite weak and if mates come round with weed that's the end of story but recently i've felt really anti-smoking, it's hard to describe it's not like i'm trying to quit but all of a sudden i don't want to smoke, which is weird as this is a big habit.........i feel like i've had a definite shift in my mentality about smoking, and not through any conscious thought, i am torn on this..........i find this v weird, but it feels permanent this time, and i don't know how i know but i do.......has anyone else had this happen to them?.......i dunno if this applies to class a's, which i only use v rarely anyways, but this is just so random i have all this time on my hands....... :nervous: , lol i guess it's a good thing, doesn't feel normal at all right now tho and in a way i feel more stoned being sober.......several ppl have commented that i am a different person, and that i have lost noticeable weight in the last week even tho i have been stuffing myself............what is going on?......i never thought it would end like this.
i've been smoking weed about 4 and a half years now (never touched a fag btw), more heavily for the last 2 years (prolly has something to do with uni being in shit location, no nightlife etc so mostly out of boredom and escapism) but it does go up and down, rarely go a day without it and the longest stretch i could remember without was 5 days, which shows how addicted i am.........stopped dealing about 8 months ago, however over the last 2 months the usage has gone up quite a bit, maybe 2/3 8ths a week, which i now can't afford and not practical with final year of studies being the hardest..........thought about quitting several times, which isn't easy when your social circles revolve around stoners and uni is a hotbed of drugs lol........but never really made a conscious effort, guess i enjoy it too much, every birthday i kinda think am i getting too old for this shit.........i'm 20 atm btw.
anyways, i went home last week in the knowledge i can't score there so thought this would be good to get a break, that was it...........came back after 8 days and felt instantly wary about the availability of drugs, and not sure why, a part of me must want to let it go........so i had a few puffs that night and the following day with friends, thought i would re-adjust as usual but ended up feeling quite ill and hungover the next day, and the physical act of smoking felt really dirty, like worse than the first time if that's possible..........i'm usually quite weak and if mates come round with weed that's the end of story but recently i've felt really anti-smoking, it's hard to describe it's not like i'm trying to quit but all of a sudden i don't want to smoke, which is weird as this is a big habit.........i feel like i've had a definite shift in my mentality about smoking, and not through any conscious thought, i am torn on this..........i find this v weird, but it feels permanent this time, and i don't know how i know but i do.......has anyone else had this happen to them?.......i dunno if this applies to class a's, which i only use v rarely anyways, but this is just so random i have all this time on my hands....... :nervous: , lol i guess it's a good thing, doesn't feel normal at all right now tho and in a way i feel more stoned being sober.......several ppl have commented that i am a different person, and that i have lost noticeable weight in the last week even tho i have been stuffing myself............what is going on?......i never thought it would end like this.
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When you had the chance to clear your head a bit you've realised it wasnt doing you any good and dont want to go back.
Its quite common for this to happen if you go through a period of smoking a lot, you go off it, dont enjoy it and then stop or drasticly cut down for a while.
I very rarely smoke any now - usually only when I'm on class A's or after the pub.
then i skin up and once again the inside of my head is decorated in neon.
I can understand what you're saying...
I used to smoke a lot of soapbar, just taking bongs/buckets all day, i found that really hard on the body...really bad pains etc...and I was losing weight noticably.
As for your throat...I've had pains, unpleasant sensations and that sort of thing...it's deffo related.
weird you should say that, i lost a stone in a week a while back when smoking soapbar, there must be some fucked up chemicals in that stuff.........never happened on skunk even with heavier dosage......
and i can't ever see myself smoking regular again, it's like i've been there, done that, time to move on.........today is double crap as i have the 'campus flu', could barely move today feels like a war going on in my body.
and the throat thing i have been told to expect, but i don't know for how long and if it takes longer to clear up the more you been smoking.........anyone been here before?.....it's day 12 and throat started playing up 3 days ago........
thanx...Lauren
before ...you make a fool of yourself.
This sounds like a bad thing to do, but its not, most smokers are quite happy to have a novice along, it makes them feel wise and mature, showing the youngster in the ways of the smoke etc.
A lot think it's funny to stitch them up too.
I would recommend you read our page on peer pressure as well.
What you are thinking about doing is illegal, potentially harmful to your physical and mental health, and you should find out as much as possible about it so you can make an informed choice. You could also show your friend this information so they can decide for themselves too. Take care.
The more I learn about how he was before the end the more I understand it, he never wanted to be old really, and certainly not a cripple, he'd just had both his hips replaced and broken his ankle.
Still, the world looses one of the sanest crazy voices its ever had.