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A retrospective: Chemical days are ending soon.
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All right, I've been a recreational user for about 5 years now. It's been a fun and interesting run. I believe I'm definitely rounding out and finishing up, having gained all i can from the stuff I've done.. As one might notice "diminishing returns" as the night rolls into 6, 7, or 8am, I am starting to notice diminishing returns as the weeks and months go by... ehh.. I think you get to the point where you could continue supplementing your life with chemicals and whatever, or you can just take what you know and move forward... so, really, from a metaphorical point of view, it's about 7am in the morning and i'm feeling like it might be time to call it a night.
I'm not turning into a straight-edge saint or anything like that. A life completely without chemicals would probably be pretty drab. Sure, i'll partake in some THC on occasion, and once in a blue moon may end up in a situation where i'll partake in a bit more.. I'd rather it not be "part" of my life anymore. It consumes a lot of my thought during my waking hours, and I feel those are cycles that could be channeled into something more effective. Aside from all that, I'm looking forward to improving upon my diminishing short-term memory.
I have new questions about the short and long-term effects of these chemicals. In many ways, there are very uncertain results that can be drawn from the use of certain drugs, because there are so many differentiating factors (purity, dosage, mental-state of the person taking them, combinations, and a million other variants). I can say that 2 years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have had periods of severe depression. I can also say my memory has been not as sharp as it once was. But then these can be attributed to stress, unhappiness with my current situation (job, etc).. It is impossible at this point to feel what it might be like had I never started taking chemicals. It's a null point, besides... nothing can be done at this point. I do know that, if usage is ceased, minor damage caused to the brain will be able to heal by itself.. to a point.. if continued, you can pass a point of no return (ie. permanent brain damage).
moderation is the key. i've always practiced moderation, since i started, but my moderate usage has been very consistent (though i've had nights that contradict this). and now i believe i have reached a point in my life (i'm 25 now) to expand the mind in other ways. i have much to learn about the world.. Many things I'd like to learn how to do, or try to do. Things that are impossible to do if I'm spending my weekends recovering
I'm not knocking chemicals. I believe, if one is of sound mind and body, some experimentation with the right stuff can be quite beneficial in learning about yourself and the world around you. I'm just saying I've learned these things and, at this point, continued usage will only be detrimental to my health
Anyway, this was my retrospective.
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I'm not turning into a straight-edge saint or anything like that. A life completely without chemicals would probably be pretty drab. Sure, i'll partake in some THC on occasion, and once in a blue moon may end up in a situation where i'll partake in a bit more.. I'd rather it not be "part" of my life anymore. It consumes a lot of my thought during my waking hours, and I feel those are cycles that could be channeled into something more effective. Aside from all that, I'm looking forward to improving upon my diminishing short-term memory.
I have new questions about the short and long-term effects of these chemicals. In many ways, there are very uncertain results that can be drawn from the use of certain drugs, because there are so many differentiating factors (purity, dosage, mental-state of the person taking them, combinations, and a million other variants). I can say that 2 years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have had periods of severe depression. I can also say my memory has been not as sharp as it once was. But then these can be attributed to stress, unhappiness with my current situation (job, etc).. It is impossible at this point to feel what it might be like had I never started taking chemicals. It's a null point, besides... nothing can be done at this point. I do know that, if usage is ceased, minor damage caused to the brain will be able to heal by itself.. to a point.. if continued, you can pass a point of no return (ie. permanent brain damage).
moderation is the key. i've always practiced moderation, since i started, but my moderate usage has been very consistent (though i've had nights that contradict this). and now i believe i have reached a point in my life (i'm 25 now) to expand the mind in other ways. i have much to learn about the world.. Many things I'd like to learn how to do, or try to do. Things that are impossible to do if I'm spending my weekends recovering
I'm not knocking chemicals. I believe, if one is of sound mind and body, some experimentation with the right stuff can be quite beneficial in learning about yourself and the world around you. I'm just saying I've learned these things and, at this point, continued usage will only be detrimental to my health
Anyway, this was my retrospective.
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And as with any age at all if you have concerns over your mental health then you really shouldnt be using.
I have a friend who has said just what you just said quite a few times. He seems to have the idea that it is either all or nothing with drug use, I guess he doesnt trust himself to do it every now and then. Also there is the subconsious idea that drug use is wrong and automaticly detrimental to health and that you cant 'grow up' while still using them.
Also there is the point that we bandy about the term 'drug use' but what does it really mean, is it the occasional spliff, having a few mushies on a saturday afternoon, a few pills at a party, a heavy speed binge at a club...use patterns are as vaired as the drugs themselves.
Oh yes, certainly. It's all very subjective. Intake, frequency, all changes from person to person. And I completely agree with what you say about mental blockages concerning usage. I know a lot of people deal with a great level of guilt surrounding usage.. That one can't grow WITH the use.. That it sortof freezes them in time.. Something done before they "grow up." I don't believe that to be true. In my mind, anyway, it has run parrallel to my personal "growth." a part of the journey, as it were.
But then, is that just growing older, its always difficult to seperate the two. As you grow older its only natural that you know yourself and your own views better.
It feels like i been in a serious relationship for years and now were going our seperate ways.
in the end it just wasnt fun anymore, started getting panic attacks and i swear that shit makes you go crazy if you smoke enough of it lol......so i 'cut down' several times in the past year, it just doesnt work with me its all or nothing, so i quit as of 3 weeks ago, just to regain some clarity and focus in life........and oh boy it feels like waking up from a 4 year coma.....obviously i have enjoyed the drugs and the experiences but i think in a way it inhibited my personal growth in other areas, which is quite obvious when you devote so much time to one activity.......and once you find that clarity, you might like me realise that you never really want to go back to the way it was.......
this presents a whole bunch of problems, the main one being leaving your mates behind, i feel i would be dragged in too easily if i stayed in the same environment.......it is hard to say goodbye to a way of life and move on, but that is life......and i feel better for it..........thats not to say ill never dibble and dabble here and there, but nothing like the daily mind-blowing intake of marijuana.
She gave up weed i think and now shes disappeared! :eek:
What do you mean?
I honestly do think that my past drug use has been very helpful to me, I've learnt things, been places, met people, had experiences that I would not have been able to have otherwise.
Its not a view said very often, but, well, I'm entirely glad I did it, I have no problems with any of the use I did.
No point in being sarky if you aren't clear about it though, that will learn me. Promise I won't do it again *hangs head in shame*
I was being a bit 'Days of Our Lives' wasnt I, although probably none of you will know what Days of Our Lives is. Oh well, and you say you have lived!
Although you havent been very nice to me today, those comments about my age and looks cut deep you know.
Not me. No no. :no:
And yes you were being very Days, you drama queen. Trying to keep me in a state of constant anxiety, if I have a board melt down it will be all your fault you know.
and I told you, never mention the incident!!!!!
And I didnt mention the incident, there never was one....
No, whatever would make them say that?
oh well.. looking forward to gaining some perspective
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Its the sloping forhead and the eyes being so close together, have you studied Craniology recently. I have the head of a stage coach driver, and given that we dont have them anymore I look out of place.
I'm quite surprised at the number of people who are stopping because they have had real problems. Most people I know stop either because of lack of funds or because they just dont really fancy it anymore.