Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition) w/c 24.11.25

Katie

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Lottie5433

It’s been a rough morning, everything has kinda collapsed on me. Been crying since the moment I woke up really and it’s over something so stupid (that doesn’t matter through) I’ve annoyed my bf because I’ve not ate and all my medication says I need to eat before or after it. It’s got to a point where I don’t care if I feel sick when I’m on my meds. Stopped taking my inhaler even though I need it and told my gp I need a different one cause it’s not helping. Idk what’s even making me carry on right now.
Also told my bf the only way I can feel better is to hurt myself but I can’t find anything to use because I’ve packed it all away - he doesn’t want me to do anything and wants me to talk but I can’t, I have know one that gets it, understands it or will just listen. I just get told I’m being stupid etc.
trying to distract myself with bracelet making and tv but it’s not taking me away from the thoughts (like I am safe, but I know I’m worrying my bf etc)
Part of me just wants to give up with all the waiting for support like they don’t care, haven’t been to peer support group for like 2 months now and still not had a check in to see how I am. Was told if I don’t go to group consistently then they’d start wellbeing calls but they haven’t, so do they really care?
Just seem to mask all day everyday and when I’m alone I break down in tears and hate myself. I get easily annoyed and irritated by everything because I’m exhausted from masking all day

Idk why I’ve even wrote this, but if you got this far I hope your okay and hope the day is as awesome as you are