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Can't sleep
Redemption
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I was going to talk about this on support chat tonight but it was unfortunately cancelled which is ok, it happens. Anyway Im struggling to sleep atm , also I’ve been struggling to get up and face the day, often feeling overwhelmed. Every time I try to move forward and leave my failures behind, something happens that pulls me back. I was supposed to have an interview today for an internship that helps place people in work, but now it's looking unlikely because something needed updating and I’m not relying on it. This is what I mean. Just when things seem okay, they fall apart. I had my first placement assessment and thought it was a good chance, but my interview answers were too short. I waited so long for another shot, then ended up late for the recent placement. That’s on me, just silly mistakes, but it feels like I keep getting held back. I’ve tried to sort out backup plans, like having a placement assessment session, but I also had a potential backup plan doing domestic steam cleaning. Unfortunately, the company decided they didn’t want to go ahead with it. I know I’ll get there, but I’ve been stuck in this uncertainty for so long. I wake up feeling overwhelmed when I should feel refreshed. I’m also losing sleep, and my stress shows up in bad dreams.
Over the past couple of years, I’ve been focusing on personal growth and developing a better mindset. It’s been an extremely long road, and while it’s been tough, I’ve come to understand that it’s okay not to land my dream job right away and that starting somewhere is normal. I’ve struggled at times, but I keep moving forward despite the overwhelming moments. I’ve worked on reducing inappropriate jokes and taking responsibility for my actions, and I’ve also tackled old habits, like drinking daily, which I’ve now reduced to weekends, maybe reducing it more. Career efforts haven’t always worked out, but I’ve kept trying, even when things haven’t gone as planned. While stress and uncertainty are constant, I remain hopeful and determined to reach my goals, including finding a job, getting a new car, owning a home, and traveling more. I know the first step is securing a job, and though it’s challenging, I’ll continue to push through with support, hoping that everything will come together gradually.
It is just a long road just the big steps like big changes of securing that role. It's just a tough process, it often keeps me up like this at night and really overwhelmed during the day too. I do feel like A LOT what I have done is nothing, not at all enough because of not making that big step of getting secured in employment and I'm not at where others are are at, I know its not a race and I'm on my own journey but I struggle despite that.
Over the past couple of years, I’ve been focusing on personal growth and developing a better mindset. It’s been an extremely long road, and while it’s been tough, I’ve come to understand that it’s okay not to land my dream job right away and that starting somewhere is normal. I’ve struggled at times, but I keep moving forward despite the overwhelming moments. I’ve worked on reducing inappropriate jokes and taking responsibility for my actions, and I’ve also tackled old habits, like drinking daily, which I’ve now reduced to weekends, maybe reducing it more. Career efforts haven’t always worked out, but I’ve kept trying, even when things haven’t gone as planned. While stress and uncertainty are constant, I remain hopeful and determined to reach my goals, including finding a job, getting a new car, owning a home, and traveling more. I know the first step is securing a job, and though it’s challenging, I’ll continue to push through with support, hoping that everything will come together gradually.
It is just a long road just the big steps like big changes of securing that role. It's just a tough process, it often keeps me up like this at night and really overwhelmed during the day too. I do feel like A LOT what I have done is nothing, not at all enough because of not making that big step of getting secured in employment and I'm not at where others are are at, I know its not a race and I'm on my own journey but I struggle despite that.
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Cheers bro
I might have to try that if it gets bad