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i just would love a hug 💔 (potential trigger warning)

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  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    might be being admitted to a mental health hospital 💔😔
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    im trying so hard not to relapse 😭💔 im struggling so much today i just need a hug 😭
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • AnonymousToeAnonymousToe Posts: 2,536 Boards Guru
    Sending virtual hugs @eylah 🫂🩷 we’re here for you
  • Orchid059Orchid059 Moderator Posts: 342 The Mix Regular
    You are being so brave @eylah and you are doing so well! <3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    thankyou @AnonymousToe im here for you to <3


    Orchid059 wrote: »
    You are being so brave @eylah and you are doing so well! <3

    im rly not doing well but i rly appreciate your help <3
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 271 The Mix Regular
    @eylah today sounds like a really tough day and you're just craving a hug. I wish I could send one through this screen <3 I wonder what kinds of things / who tends to feel most supportive when you are trying not to relapse?

    I will share some support options below for when you're trying to ride that wave of a trigger and to keep yourself safe:
    There is a free mobile app called Calm Harm. You can get it on the App Store (Apple) or Google Play (Andorid). The app is designed to prevent people from urges to self-harm using these activities: Comfort, Distract, Express Yourself, Release, Random and Breathe. You can find out more about it on https://calmharm.co.uk/

    There's a free mobile app called distrACT, it's available on the App Store (Apple) and Google Play (Android). The app gives you easy, quick, and discreet access to information and advice about self-harm and suicidal thoughts. The content has been created by doctors and experts in self-harming and suicide prevention. You can find out more here https://www.expertselfcare.com/distract/

    There’s an organisation called Sane which offers information and emotional support to people affected by emotional and mental health issues, including self harm. Their helpline SANEline is open every day from 4pm-10pm on 0300 304 7000. You can also access their textline via their website or email support@sane.org.uk. and they will reply within 72 hours. You can go to www.sane.org.uk for more details about them or to access their forum.


    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXjlR4mXxSk

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mcIUWOr3B4&amp;t=11s

    We're here for you if you'd wish to share any updates around potentially being admitted to a mental health hospital. I'm mindful there's been so much going on for you this past week, and I'm thinking of you.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    edited January 5
    hugs @Sian321 thankyou so much 🥰 idk rly bc before i get drunk & then end up in hospital so im trying my best to not let that happen bc im just waiting to hear abt whether a bed situation is happening or not. :( im just sat here trying not to cry bc im just feeling rly exhausted from everything having constant chest pain from anxiety hurts to its like i hate waking up every day bc im like same shit different day :heartbreak: . im just wanting my life to sort its self out :/. thankyou for your support it means so much to me <3

    im safe im at home btw sry if it sounded like im in crisis im not <3

    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    edited January 5
    also @Sian321 cpuld you possibly pls add a trigger warning to my post here? as ppl might find it triggering and then delete this msg if possible <3.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 271 The Mix Regular
    Hi @eylah , I hear you - please may you flag the post through 'reported posts' and detail which parts you'd like changing, and then I can action this. Thank you :3
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    Sian321 wrote: »
    Hi @eylah , I hear you - please may you flag the post through 'reported posts' and detail which parts you'd like changing, and then I can action this. Thank you :3

    shit i forgot to say which post i meant my first post i posted on this thread sry 😩 <3 just to add a tw in the title bc of whats mentioned here <3 thankyou
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • Laura_tigger82Laura_tigger82 Moderator Posts: 5,329 Part of The Furniture
    Hey @eylah. Thank you for sharing this with us.

    Although your post does not break any community guidelines at first glance, I have added a note to say [*Potential trigger warning please only read and respond if it feels safe and comfortable to do so].

    It is really thoughtful of you to consider how the community may feel but we are all here with you too. How are you doing at the moment?
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    I'm a community moderator. I'm here to help guide discussions and make sure Community Guidelines are followed. I can't send DMs, but you can message @TheMix or email community@themix.org.uk with questions or concerns.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    thankyou @Laura_tigger82 !! it means a lot ❤️ i just want to keep the community safe from my posts if it triggers them <3.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    just been with ambo bc of things but im not doing so well but i did find out that basically a hospital bed in a psychiatric hospital is happening. idk why i thought it wasnt but found out today bc i asked abt it with the mh nurse who came to see me this evening but it is happening and im waiting on a psychiatric bed to come available. im just struggling this evening but im trying to keep safe. hugs to those who need a hug 🫂
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • AnonymousToeAnonymousToe Posts: 2,536 Boards Guru
    That sounds like a lot of uncertainty at a rubbish time @eylah youre doing really well getting through all this. Big hugs 🫂
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    thankyou @AnonymousToe yeah its so up in air it sucks :( thankyou <3 maybe ill try get some help hopefully <3
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • shannon_164shannon_164 Posts: 540 Incredible Poster
    @eylah sending so so so much love your way🩷
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    so fucking scared for today i rly am :heartbreak: i cant face anyone bc i just know its not gonna end well today. fucked up badly last night and now im scared abt today :(
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • shannon_164shannon_164 Posts: 540 Incredible Poster
    @eylah you’ve got this🩷
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    well not if i get forced into hospital i dont. :/
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    sry if i sounded rude im sry :heartbreak: i rly appreciate your support and kindness. <4
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • shannon_164shannon_164 Posts: 540 Incredible Poster
    @eylah no not at all!! i didn’t at all take it as you meant it in a rude way - i know you’re dealing with a LOT right now, and you’re literally one of the kindest people on the planet regardless of what life throws at you!!🩷
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    i hate the home fucking treatment team!! why do they keep calling fucking ambulances on me like fuck off :sleepy:
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    im just ranting but i want help? but calling ambulances on me twice in 24 hours its fucking frustrating bc its doing my head in and especially bc paramedics trigger me and when theres no need and getting them to kick my door in bc i didnt answer i just want a better life ffs :/ im desperate for help atp but not fucking paramedics when their not needed. ffs 🤦🏼‍♀️ hoping the mh nurse calls me tmr to let me know what happening abt the psychiatric bed bc im losing my shit with home treatment team. :heartbreak:
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    apparently i got my mh nurse coming today even though shes not told me. woke up rly distressed and idk why its just so hard. :/ praying 🙏🏼 a bed comes available soon :(
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    just spoke to my mh nurse and apparently more professionals think hospital is right for me but she said her my psychiatrist and other ppl are discussing whether i should have a mh assessment due to things but can’t remember what she said bc it was a lot to take in but she said rn im agreeing but they think me having a mh assessment? is right but what does that mean after bc when i was put on a section 2 back in october i think it was? my mh nurse said they shouldn’t of taken me of the section 2 so idk what is happening now but im definitely going into hospital. im so anxious but also like? idk but i finally got answers. she is thinking a mh assessment bc of my risks of absconding etc i think idk but will continue to update sry if your reading this & getting frustrated with me but its my way of offloading. :(
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,813 Extreme Poster
    i can imagine this all feels scarey and distressing for you @eylah and hopefully you get the support you need and your mental health can get to a better place.

    sending you a big virtual hug in the mean time - we are all here for you as always :3

  • shannon_164shannon_164 Posts: 540 Incredible Poster
    @eylah dont ever apologise for using this space to offload!!! we aren’t at all frustrated with you either!!! sending so much love your way🩷
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    edited January 7
    was enjoying my sleep then now woke up bc im feeling suicidal? i hate this so much. :/ *im safe*
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,826 Part of The Furniture
    need a hug 💔
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • Riley_2001Riley_2001 Posts: 44 Boards Initiate
    @eylah
    Hey, Eylah… I hope you truly know what a warrior you are and how strong you are. We’d all love to give you a long, tight much needed hug. I hope you’re okay. 🫂 Always here for you.
    My forest welcomes your sad days too.
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